church is but a hierachy of people

church and God have grown to become two separate affairs. they aren't exactly as exclusive as it used to be anymore. God i define, as the Almighty and Creator of Heaven and Earth. Church I now define, as the place i visit to fulfil my duties as a christian, a place i go to try and seek some form of solace (translates to spiritual sanity in my sense), pray, worship, try and pay attention during sermon, repent, amen. drink, smoke, curse and swear, fuck.

i wont deny having a loving cg. but i reciprocate none of their actions. i'm sorry.

as for them, it frustrates me to see nothing happening. nobody bothers anymore. not even the decency to ask if they're attending service. they have no cg. this is exile island, and i hate it. why's no one to care, why's no one to love, fuck you all people. fuck you all. makes church like a place where people fight (god versus the devil *snorts* you wish). you fight to prove your worth. for attention and love. if your life proves too difficult to break into, they send you a little row boat off to the island of Exile.

dead or alive, no one cares.

FUCK THIS BECAUSE IT IS WHAT I SEE THE CHURCH BECOMING, THROUGH THEM.