mild se7en, again

mild se7en

KIWIS

because i got bored,

church is but a hierachy of people

church and God have grown to become two separate affairs. they aren't exactly as exclusive as it used to be anymore. God i define, as the Almighty and Creator of Heaven and Earth. Church I now define, as the place i visit to fulfil my duties as a christian, a place i go to try and seek some form of solace (translates to spiritual sanity in my sense), pray, worship, try and pay attention during sermon, repent, amen. drink, smoke, curse and swear, fuck.

i wont deny having a loving cg. but i reciprocate none of their actions. i'm sorry.

as for them, it frustrates me to see nothing happening. nobody bothers anymore. not even the decency to ask if they're attending service. they have no cg. this is exile island, and i hate it. why's no one to care, why's no one to love, fuck you all people. fuck you all. makes church like a place where people fight (god versus the devil *snorts* you wish). you fight to prove your worth. for attention and love. if your life proves too difficult to break into, they send you a little row boat off to the island of Exile.

dead or alive, no one cares.

FUCK THIS BECAUSE IT IS WHAT I SEE THE CHURCH BECOMING, THROUGH THEM.

this is our anthem

just like the holocaust
they are fighting
they are fighting
they are fighting

they are dying
they are dying
they are dying

some will watch
some will empathize
some will be left out
most will be left out

most have already died but
the brave will fight
the brave will fight

everyone will die.
everyone dies.

it's only the start of the semester,

i am awfully tired

and deadlines are stressing the hell out of me.

swim in the ocean

so i lost the battle
the fight for sociology
i might so die in basic sub-editing

if i could whine, i'd whine about what i'll miss out on. like...

learning oppurtunities (such as consumerism i suppose) in socio and,
working perfectly well, performing and surpassing the average with sarah, leraine, siew and jonny (yes jonny, our only testosterone)

BUT...

i take comfort in the fact that i've got great friends like sarah, leraine and siew
who are there to make things a whole lot better
(:

and God, to trust that He has better plans for me in sub-editing
He'd better have anyway

Lots of clear blue skies

Drake's Apartment - where we lived


Lakehouse by the swan river

Rottnest Island

BYE BYE.