my mother makes me cry the most

if there are any reasons why i hate my mother, it'll be because she's MERCENARY well yes to a certain extent. she just makes me feel so much like shit, everything when money is concerned in the conversation. not like i don't understand how expensive poly education is. but don't she just understand that, its my future that's at stake right now. its not about the money okay. why won't she understand.

maybe a conversation i had with her will help you all understand better.

after calling tp...
me: mommy, im on the waiting list in tp. they'll only put me in if there are people who withdraw.

mother: THEN WHY DON'T YOU JUST STAY IN SP. WHY TP SO COCK UP? WHAT ARE THEY DOING?!

me: im already on the waiting list. they say people will only probably withdraw from 17th-24th.

mother: THEN WHY DON'T YOU STAY IN SP. ITS ALOT OF MONEY YOU KNOW! BY THEN THERE'LL BE NO REFUND! DON'T WASTE MONEY LA!

me: but so what? wasting that amount just for that education is ... (and then i can't carry on with her nonsense)

mother: YOU WON'T HAVE GET ANY REFUND ALREADY YOU KNOW ANOT?! AND YOU ALREADY PAID THE FEES! ITS ONE THOUSAND OVER DOLLARS!

me: i know. but if you withdraw within...

mother: I DON'T KNOW LAH. YOU GO AND ASK YOUR FATHER!

then she hung up on me.

for that moment, she made those tears fall. well forget it, i've already got it planned. no matter what, i'll still accept my offer to tp given the chance, and i'll pay my father the full amount of money he paid to sp.

i hate it. im so not going to rely on her anymore, for my future education overseas. to think i thought those few thousands i got from my pay could be saved up entirely. now she just makes me not want to rely on them to pay for my notebook in tp, if its required. i really hate her sometimes. she makes me not want to take my pocket money from her at all. but i know i have to unless i take up a job to cover for my own expenses.

but anyway, we're not in some financial crisis or any sort at the moment.