have you ever cheated on someone?

i definitely gotta blog this down, cos its so freaky. gosh, why in the first place a dream about death. well, not the pleasant way. here goes...

i don't know how i got myself there, but the dream was definitely like a midnight ghost trip. i was in this courtroom, and im accused of being a murderer. to whom i do not know, and of how i did it, i do not know also. i knew only that i was judged and convicted as a murderer and sentenced to an immediate death sentence by the judge. and i was given a priviledge to choose the way i wanted to die. it was weird, cos they did not hang people. the death sentences were the torturous things you've ever want to see or know about. i was sent to this dark room where i was supposed to be dead. in the room, there was this huge screen where people could see you from the outside, and the execution was meant to be a public thing. there were alot of people there seated, watching and waiting patiently as if like in the movies. then, the executioner asked, "which of these would you prefer? multiple gunshots or hyperthermial and then death?" its rather weird though that you get to choose which death you preferred. i asked whether they could like operate those machines so at least i know how distorted i would be when i die. and it was grosse. the gunshot machine, its quite like a matress that you lie on. and then slowly this hovering thing comes over you and shoots you in places like your heart and your head. after that, this whole lot of knives jags up at you from the bottom of the mattress, something like a magician's stunt. and the knives rotate, while they are in your body. by then, you have to be dead no matter what.

just thinking like you have to have your life ended before you the very next minute is scary enough. and then you're thinking that you still have so many things you have not done, cos everythings happening so quickly. you're talking about the next minute, and not the next month.

well, freaky enough? maybe in your wildest dreams.

everybody's going to think im crazy cos im sick, and here i have this death dream over me. but yea, im not crazy im just a little unwell...

Lisa thinks she's hot cos she's a sociopath.

first of all...

to audrey, cindy, lishan, terkey, sihong: i'm so sorry, i wasn't able to make it. esp sihong cos she called me and i got my bro to say that i was sick. and when i called her back, she sounded so sad. alittle wimperish tone. AND terkey, also, cos she had to rush from punggol down to sembawang cos i couldn't make it. and i was so weak, from all the diarrhea the entire night, that i couldn't get out of bed properly.

to jiayi: thank you so much for your care and concern, and the msges and water.

to wynnie: thank you for making sure i was feeling alright, though i felt so much like vomitting.

esp to terkey:
to my dear cowcow,heard that u have been having diarrhea the whole night. maybe its cos u laughed too much about you-know-what. pls get well soon, so that we can spend time together in borders like some lovey-dovey lesbians. love, your dear terkey (:

just kidding. im not harboring same-sex tendencies. so pls do not have any designs or negative thoughts on me. even if im, it will not be cowcow. LOLL.

sounds familiar?

terkey is going to miss me, cos there's no one online to keep her company and to make her laugh cos i will be in hibernation from all the medicine.

but well, i'm glad i made it for service yesterday. it was exhilarating. felt really uncomfortable during the earlier part of the service esp during praise cos i didn' have the strength to clap at all, until during the sermon when jasmine was preaching and all that. and i guess its true even from her sermon, that prayer is power. and indeed it is.

its ACROSS THYSELF!

its official. we are ACROSS THYSELF. i love it. liberated, like how it is when God sent Jesus for us. like liberated of all our sins. thank you so much.

i am very impressed with the InHidings. maybe i should buy their album. gotta support our local bands. and their lead guitarist is rather good. and she's a She. cool ass, she's got.

well to ACROSS THYSELF: yea, we're gonna rock. and may God bless us with inspirations for many originals to come. amen.

great, if you're proud of it... FLAUNT IT.

okay. this goes out to everyone and anyone who's been offended by one of the earlier entries:

first of all, my intention of that entry was to address that freakin' issue that i just can't agree upon, whenever people use such language online. but of course, I SPEAK THAT. not like i don't. i'm a singaporean afterall. what im saying is that it just irritates me. it wasn't my intention to offend anyone, though i knew people would be. but seriously, if you felt that i was just trying to be arrogant and cocky about my so perfect english, then I AM UTTERLY SORRY ABOUT IT. cos i know my english is pretty skrewed too. written or spoken, both equally.

to singapore boi: i assume you will be reading this. so im really sorry about it, if i've offended you. and i really am.

note: this entry was published and meant only for viewers who had misunderstood my earlier entry. and serves as well as an apology to all offended.

kiss me, by the broken treehouse...
but she kissed her by the shed.

watched antm. terkey's finished with next week's epi already. such a jerk. but next week's one going to be DRAMA cos shandi has sex with one of the guys in milan, and when she told her bf abt she, she started breaking down in torrents of tears. and she knelt down on the streets of milan, and cried.

she's really getting prettier, i must say. though yoanna's still the best, cos i love her hair and tail. she looks cute with that tadpole sticking out. and she's got yellow hands. but according to terkey, she's got huge hands or palms to be exact. so that means, she's got big yellow palms. must have been the over-intake of carrots. she must have starved herself with those cute lil carrot sticks to shed that 40lbs. but can you imagine shedding 40lbs, without any surgical methods i think. terkey knows the best about her, what can i say?

too beautiful to die, to wild to live...

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THIS GOES OUT TO ALL SINGAPOREANS, READ IT IF YOU ARE ONE.

i am so utterly disgusted by that language singaporeans are using on the net. its not only disgraceful, but nonsensical too. x's and z's don't sound cool in language, dear fuckers and bastards. if you could, kindly demonstrate how you speak that language. cos it just sounds so totally foreign to mankind. you speak what you type. so if your tongue ain't that functional, just learn to stop it. cos its annoying. and yea, i hate it when "lahs", "lors", "lehs" are used especially in blogs too. when will singaporeans learn to stop that fucking habit in their writing. i speak that, but no way am i going to include that even in my blog. its so irritating, and esp people who like using hokkien in their blogs or whatever. its so fucking humiliating, cos it makes everyone around the world think that singaporean's speak alien.

feel like im facing an identity crisis, cos all your fellow singporeans are speaking very fucksome languages on the net. and it isn't cool, when everyone thinks its cool. or even some i've seen who add double letters to their words. i really wonder how they pronounced them. this are all brought up while i was 'NEXT BLOG'ing. well, i wished i didn't live here and i would not want to.

quoting lisa, "THIS IS SO FUCKED UP, ASSHOLE."

where's jamie? where's jamie?

remember me mentioning about the tab submission on ultimate-guitar?

ITS FINALLY UP! AND ITS RATED 4 STARS! EVERYONE GO CHECK IT OUT, MAN! ITS SUM 41'S PIECES. PAGE 8 ON ULTIMATE-GUITAR TO BE EXACT, AND MINE'S THE 4 STARRED ONE. but, i sound like a guy on it. i doubt anyone's believing its done by a girl other than having my name on it.

http://www.ultimate-guitar.com/tabs/s/sum_41/pieces_tab.htm

you just gotta check it out. so proud of it, and myself of course. credits to sihong. girl, you should know why. so yea, cool, and man this november's like a drag or something cos i can't jam yet. still fasting from it. but well, could have been a good thing too. so i have much more time to other stuff. but still, check my pieces tab out. call me shameless or what?

my dad's so lame. have you watched an adult fall while jogging, well if you happen to live in my neighbourhood you'll get what i'm trying to say here. i feel mean, but who cares. my dad fell while jogging just now, cos first of all, he was jogging the dark like arnd 7.30 when its alrd dark where i live. secondly he went jogging in those remote areas where its exceptionally dark, and he ran on sandy ground. so that explains why he fell. and it must have been crazy when he fell, cos he had abrasion all over him. literally, all over him. there were abrasions on his chin and upper forehead, knees, shoulder and palms. it had to be a pretty funny sight. okay, don't stone me for that.

i remembered what i wanna say after such a long long time. WHY DO SINGAPORE LIKE SLYVESTER SIM? is he called sim? don't know and don't wanna know. but well, that slyvester from singapore idol if you're clueless about what i just mentioned. he's so ugly, and i really don't know what's so fucking great about him. (im not trying to be rude here, refer to my fuck philosophy in earlier entries.) he's so ugly, and i think he looks like warner bro's taz. like really eeewwwlll, though he can quite sing. good sounding, butisn't heart-felt. so that's bad. i really can't take the sight of him. he's very very grosse looking, and i thgt he tries to play mr.cool guy. and HE'S REALLY THAT UGLY. plus, a guy with a bloody nose stud? oh fuck on, dear bro.

and to quote what sihong quoted from pug jelly, "reality check. singapore is that small..." what's with a local idol. look at what's happened to formerly known Cherry Chocolate Candy. poofed. bye bye. zai jian. sayonara. so i doubt anything great's going to come out from this singapore idol fantasy. singapore's just trying too much, and its very much in vain. but of course i do take my yankee doodle hat off to really talented local artists that are what you call surviving. like maybe tanya chua, parking lot pimp? at least they're not like some who needs your tv set to help unleash and showcase their talents.

i am going to be the Cinderella. you can be the cockel spaniel that eats spaghetti.


a fresh new look. not exactly though. looks almost like terkey's, but it isn't. well, forgive me birdie. and guess who that woman is. terkey will know who she is, cos she's crazy over her. but well, to all who don't know continue guessing.

terkey must be dying to have this up, but i shall have it up first.

to anyone who feels suicidal, here's to you:

Razor's pain ya, Rivers are damp
Acids sting ya, Drugs cause cramp,
Guns aren't lawful, Nooses give,
Gas smells aweful, You might as well live.

what's your diag-nonsense?

i shall officially be a fan of Girl, Interrupted. i've said it many times, but i'm gonna say it again. its just so insane, and mental. if you've got only enough cash just for a vcd/ dvd, go for Girl, Interrupted cos that's the show that will really blow your mind off. cos its just so fucked up, if you get what i'm trying to say here.


and no offense to everyone, cos i don't get it sometimes why people just think so negatively about proffanities. like fuck. this is totally my opinion, so don't stone me for this. but take the word fuck, its commonly used as an adjective to cleary illustrate and intensify the noun or verb that is to follow. and also when used as a noun, it is used during conversations with any of your close friends cos its the only word that brings people together. look, im not dissing anyone here. but, isn't it true? maybe that is if you do overly use that word, or like a regular dosage of aspirin.


okay, the whole girl interrupted thing is definitely getting into me. and my apologies to all who find it totally humiliating.


Janet: [Singing] Oh Lordy, pick a bale o cotton, Oh Lordy, pick a bale o hay, gotta jump down spin around pick a bale o cotton, gotta jump down spin around pick a bale o hay…[sprinkles ash around]


watched too much tv today, and that's bad. but well, here goes. usher won 4 awards in the AMA's. and he never fails to thank his personal lord and savoir first before all else. real humble guy. and i bet all the christians arnd the world watching it, were loving him. and then there was the mtv vma. rather boring, cos the show was stolen by the blacks with all their raps. that just shows how rapid the us music industry is growing towards. unlike uk, where you get your almost everyday music. but i hate rap, cos they're so full of crap and they come without a tune. nominees mtv's vma went from jay-z to usher to d12 and a whole lot other black people. with their bling blings.


and yea, america's next top model. those who watched it, GOOD FOR YOU. and i really hate camille. no maybe not so much of hatred, but i just so totally despise her. freakin' momma. she tries to be nice to yoanna to defeat her. and then stabs her real hard in the back by saying that she's got some eating disorders. but seriously, i think its rather common for models to suffer from eating disorders. but thank God for tyra banks. she's sweet. she's great man. she really cares for the girls that enters antm. even in cycle 1. so yea, cheerios to her.


something random and irrelevant. posed an american's life while getting down my block to meet jiayi, for the sake of convenience. when i got her msg, i thgt she was already waiting for me down my block with the guitar bag in her hands, and rushed out of my house and down the lift without any bra on. but well, decided not to wear one, cos its just down a few some stairs and up and down the lift. in the end, walked with her to her house instead to get the gig bag, and without any bra on and it felt a little uncomfortable cos you are stepping out of your house without a bra! but well, its in the dark so.... maybe singaporeans should get out of their houses without their bras more often. im not speaking for myself here, but i can't promise i won't stare.


ps, terkey: can you let me be the sociopath? you can have borderline personality disorder. or would you prefer being a patholigical liar?

you're not the boss of me now...

me: eh, terkey, today's service very cool leh...

terkey: of course cool lah, the air con is on.


but yea, yesterday's service was really cool cos they sang avrils' nobody's home. not for praise of course. i didn't think it would be avril's song, until it really was. it was cool that the song was sang, but the disappointing thing was that the musicians played it rather awfully. but it was cool. for once there was this connection with the church, with nobody's home.


and i hate sundays and public holidays, cos my mom's at home. i hate it. hate her to be at home, the entire day, and she'll keep nagging me to do my bed, open my windows, draw the blinds, and clear my table. so the best way to avoid her nagging is to sleep. minimal contact.


and i want to have change this layout soon, maybe. want to have a girl, interrupted one. and im getting a little obsessed with it already. script hunting with terkey for girl, interrupted. we are already quoting from the show like crazy. and i really wish that was our lit text, i'd feel confident of scoring an A1 for it. on a hunt for gia vcd or dcd. and when i was at poh kim yesterday, the woman there either didn't understand me at all, or there really had no such movies in that shop. but i doubt it was true, cos she looked more like she did not understand me at all. and poh kim is so filled with hokkien soap operas. and they are lengthy long winded shows that last for generations.

I'd say all the words that i know...

im done with peices. took quite a while to figure out the lead. but still, i got it. should i submit my tabs onto ultimate-guitar? want to share my work with everyone. we'll see. if you think i should, drop me a tag.


deepavali was boring, no offence to any of our indian counterparts out there. but really, tv stations are showing very boring shows and channel i is playing nothing but bollywood. do we need to watch such inian films also? its boring, and all you do is to watch a whole group of people dancing and dancing. that's what bollywood is all about. and its god damn dramatic. and they never speak. they sing and dance. and watching them twirl around in their sari's make you feel superbly giddy. its a film without a storyline. and the actors and actresses just dance like there's no 2morrow. imagine going to the movies to watch people dance? sheer stupidity.


when are they filming avril's try to shut me up concert? not like i like avril, but her band's awesome. so yea, and i bet she's going to be screaming some mantra through the mike. and shandi looks like avril. just the longer and thinner avril. and yoanna's 5"11 which makes her 180cm tall. models make good actresses, just like angelina jolie. she looks weird pushing a pram with maddox in it. and she wears some very fugly sandals along with her skirt. but well, she's great. and can she adopt me? i'd definitely be more than willing to. shall post some of her fugly pics of her with maddox and her slippers. and look out for maddox's mohawk. i think angelina jolie lives cheap. like from the clothes that she wear. you would never believe she's a hollywood star. you'll believe after i post some of her pics in her very casual wear.


well, im supposed to be on a daniel fast. fasting from jamming, which means no guitars and drums til the end of november. how long is that? well, integrity...

pleasure in pain

here's a little funny facts about angelina jolie. really, read them. she's weird, queer whatever name you have for her, but yea, they are such laugh-abouts. here goes...


she used to have a tatoo on her V.


As a child, Jolie wanted to become a funeral director.


She eats nothing but red meat.


She like surrealism and self-help books.


She likes women more than men.


She thinks that Cheerios are the "greatest food in the world".


She collects vampire books.


Angelina and Billy own a bird named Alice but she's afraid it doesn't like her! Billy taught it how to say 'fuck you' but it can't pronounce the "f".


Angelina has a pet rat named Harry and she feeds it pumpkin pie.


She is of Czecholslovakian, English and Native American Heritage.


She is openly bisexual.


She loves putting on a lot of lotion.


She knows how to tango.


Her favorite feature about herself is the way her veins take shape on her forearms. (the way her veins pop out, nice.)


She has always felt like she looked like a Muppet.


Maddox's favourite Disney Character is Dumbo!

ONE HOUR GONE.

STUPID FUCKING BRO! HE RIPPED ME OFF AN HOUR WITH ANGELINA JOLIE! ITS NOT LIKE THE SHOW IS FANTASTIC, BUT AT LEAST SHE IS! GOD DAMN SHIT.


aarrrggghhhhh!!! to make up for lost time with her, im so gonna replay my girl interrupted.


terkey, i am going to talk to you with lots of quote from girl interrupted. if only, that was to be our o levels lit text. i will so love it!


God, i pray that the next morning when i wake up, please let my mother be a little more like angelina jolie. maybe she should try adopting a singaporean teenage girl, and i will be on top of her list. she's gonna love me.

chuck taylor.

ripped this off sihong's.


What are you listening to? PlanetShakers - Running after You


Favourite bands? Switchfoot, Bowling for Soup, Yellowcard, Good Charlotte, Jars of Clay


How would describe the kind of music you listen to? not a hard core person. that's very noisy. just noise and no music. but well, give me something with enough guitars in it to call it good.


Do you name inanimate objects? like calling my com a bitch, cos she certainly is.


What is your CD player's name? aiwa for mr boombox.


Which musicians of the same sex would you do? caught no balls of it


If you HAD to? whacked no balls


Which musician of the opposite sex would you like to meet? guitarist of bowling for soup. cos he's HUGE.


Can you sing? depends how you define singing? but i reckon i can't.


What musical instruments do you play? guitars for Basic Courtesy. but i can play drums and bass too. not very good with the bass yet. huge frets, small hands.


Are you in a band? Yes, Basic Courtesy


Describe your band in five words/ if you're not in one, describe your imaginary one in five words? dysfunstional still, but getting there. and for my ideal band, guitarist as quick as dashboard confessionals, bassist as good as blink 182, drummer as good as green day. and singer that can sing our genre.


What do you think when you hear:


Velvet Revolver: smooth guns


Outkast: green


The Starting Line: on you marks, get set, GO!


Franz Ferdinand: sounds like soap opera.


The Starlight Mints: sparkling chews


Taking Back Sunday: oxymoron.


Michelle Branch: accoustic guitars


Ashlee Simpson: dyed brunnette who tugs on her skirt while singing


Avril Lavigne: lousy hooked up nose singer, with very good musicians from her band.


Hilary Duff: ang-moh Ayumi. doll-like figurines


Carbon Leaf: photosynthesis


Rilo Kiley: rhyming words


Broken Social Scene: blacks and muds


Frou Frou: sounds like animal food


Brand New: advertisements


Off Montreal: the airport


How do you get your music? im cheap, i either dwnld them all or borrow.


How many CD's do you have? look above, im cheap.


What is the most recent one you bought? haven't i said that im cheap


Name one of your CD's you couldn't live without? none, but christian's good for studying.


Name one of your CD's you never listen to? Nsync - Celebrity. that was ages ago.


What is the last CD you listened to? Yellowcard


Who do you think has the coolest music taste? sihong and terkey (except save ferris and letters to cleo)


Express you love for them: continue having good taste.


What are you listening to now? planetshakers again.


Lastly say something random: go dwnld planetshakers. its christian, but sounds really cool.


Anything else? let's do their songs.

overdrive.

friday was great. we had our recording before the little birthday surprise for miss chionh. and i feel stupid now. we rented a johnnson amp and i forgot to turn the overdrive on for the distorted effect. arrghhh! i didn't realise until i returned it to novelty store yesterday, after the uncle re-examined the amp for any mishandling. fugly shit. but well, friday's recording wasn't that bad after all.

songs we did:
mcfly - 5 colours in her hair
ronan keating - when you said nothing at all
monsoon 5 - she will always be loved

and if i had the overdrive on, 5 colors in her hair would sound fab-oh-lous. but mommy, its over...!

and i must say this, TERKEY YOUR DRUMS HAVE IMPROVED! it is so so much better than the 1st time when we learned drums when you looked so super constipated. and now, you've grown much wittier and skillful and also much more observant of the music that we play. goodie bird. aren't you proud of yourself. you can finally feel the beat in your bird soul!

oh right, miss chionh's surprise party.

it was fantastic, and everything turned out almost as planned. our bbq was definitely a flop, no lights and mrs moon was away with mr sun on some vacation leaving us with only punky clouds who made fools of us with the slight drizzle. thank you so much for that.

but well, we still had alot of fun. and all my secrets were laid on the table all thanks to sihong and terkey telling her all my "chou shi". but im proud of them man, esp the mdm hana one. and no, mdm hana doesn't look like angelina jolie at all. she's so fugly crap. cringe at her voice and face.

and yes, missoin accomplished. miss chionh cried while she was reading our card to her on her way back home. sweet. guess we're gonna make her cry again, with our 3Faith scrapbook coming right up. and since she's expecting another gathering, we could have another one sometime during christmas. bet she'll cry. oh no, maybe that would deprive her from her romantic dinner for 2 with her boyfriend. we'll see.

but what really touched me the most was what she msged cherlyn about. can't really recall what she said but, she definitely did mention something like, "thank you thank you thank you so much for everything. and this has been a memorable one, because i hardly ever celebrate my birthday. thank you so much for everything." ain't that sweet. it just makes you so wanna tear, when you read it.

but well, thank God for her and everything that she's done for 3Faith.

i hate beetles, now.

joke of the night: a beetle landed on my eye in the night, while i was sleeping. and it scratched me on my eye lids.

stupid brown beetles. now i know why jerine hates them. they are so irrtating. it clung onto my eye lids, and i thought it was some plastic thing at first. and i plucked it off my eye and kept it in my palm. and it kept moving around my palms, and stuck to one of my fingers. in the end, i plucked it hard and threw it onto the ground, doing all this while asleep.

thank God, my eye lids didn't swell. i don't want to wake up looking like ultraman.

but well, yesterday's ptc was a joke.

miss tang: ....... when bella loses her focus, she just sits there and bite her nails.

and my mom scolded me for biting my nails.