Wednesday, March 29, 2006

fuck. i just screwed myself up.

"If you wish to accept the offer of admission, you must attend the enrolment. Please keep the appointment given to you in the letter offering you admission to the Singapore Polytechnic, otherwise the offer will be deemed to have lapsed and the vacancy will be offered to other applicants. "
-SP Admissions Site
fuck, tell me how fucking screwed i am.
I didn't do the pre-registration at sp, didn't turn up to sp for my appointed registration.
And now, my application to TP is still pending. Not a single confirmation YET. should have done the jpsae, which is so much faster and less troublesome. at least not til this state.
FUCK IT.
imagine if i never called sp, and i got rejected by tp both at the same time. i'll be a fucking 15 point average, with no school to go.
and fuck, im only going to earn $1280 this month cos friday i have to go down to sp for my enrolment. $280 is not even enough to pay for the MIKEAL corner workstation from ikea.
and then orientation at sp - 10th march. i'll only be left with 10 days to do my necessary stuff to prepare for school. and if tp accepts me, definitely about another 10 days to adjust myself for school.

Tuesday, March 21, 2006

yet another

i'm low in fat!

tell me if its all by chance. i happened to flip last week's issue of MindYourBody in the office, and then as i was reading an article about oesteoporosis, it says "anorexia nervosa" leads to premature menopause. as you all know, during the on set of menopause, woman lose up to 5-6% of bone mass in a year.

anorexia nervosa. to double confirm that the 'anorexia nervosa' condition the papers were referring to was the right anorexia that struck my head, i decided to confirm it with the online cambridge dictionary. but as i was trying to access it, "WEB PAGE ERROR". so then i googled it.

indeed anorexia nervosa, was the exact same anorexia thingy i had in mind.

as defined by anred.com...
anorexia nervosa (eating disorder) - the relentless persuit of thinness.

bullima nervosa (eating disorder also) - the diet-binge-purge disorder

this is what happens when someone is bullimic.

1. person diets, becomes hungry, and then binge eats in response to power cravings and feelings of deprivation

2. feels out of control while eating

3. Fears gaining weight and frantically tries to "undo" the binge. Vomits, misuses laxatives, exercises, or fasts to get rid of the calories

4. Swears to "be good," to never binge eat again, but then continues to restrict food intake which starts yet another repeat of the deprivation-hunger-binge-purge cycle.

5. Believes self-worth requires being thin. (It does not.)

6. May shoplift, be promiscuous, and abuse alcohol, drugs and credit cards. May engage in risk-taking behavior and have other problems with impulse control. Person acts with little thought of consequences.

7. Weight may be normal or near normal unless anorexia is also present.

comes naturally or living them out?

to educate yourself more on the issue, kindly click ME!
72 full hours

Anyway, here's an interesting article i found regarding Jesus's crucifixion and resurrection.

Article: Three Days and Three Nights
source: http://www.wonderfulworldtomorrow.org/article.html

On one of the many occasions when Jesus was challenged by Scribes and Pharisees, He was asked to offer them proof of His Messiahship: they wanted him to show them a miraculous sign. Answering His critics, Jesus first chastised them, pointing out they were part of “an evil and adulterous generation” that required signs, and then He turned to them and said:

"no sign will be given to it (the present generation) except the sign of the prophet Jonah. For as Jonah was three days and three nights in the belly of the great fish, so too will be the Son of Man be three days and three nights in the heart of the earth." (Matthew 12: 39-40)

This was the sign Christ was willing to give the recalcitrant Pharisees: the sign involving His death, which they were seeking, and His resurrection - something they would later deny. It was the true sign He was the Messiah, their Savoir. The miraculous healings they had already witnessed could be reasoned away, but His resurrection from the dead after three days and three nights in the tomb, Never! This was ultimately the proof Christ would offer to those who doubted Him, and it was he evidence countless generations of Christians would point to as proof of His divinity.

Given the importance the miracle of His resurrection, Christ prophesied using a precise timetable showing when He would rise from the dead. Strange as it may seem, however, modern Christianity commemorates this event on a day when it would not have happened, Easter Sunday. In their ignorance, Christains deny the very sign He gave them as evidence that He is their Messiah. They do not understand Christ could not have been resurrected on their popular holiday.

How long was Christ in the tomb?

No human witnessed Christ's resurrection. The only record we have of it is the one contained in the Bible. Thus the answer to when Christ was resurrected must come from inspired scripture otherwise we are simply speculating. A close look at Jonah's confinement in the belly of the great fish should give us the answer.

Most would agree that the three days and three nights Jonah spent in the fish's belly constitute a period of seventy-two hours. The day time period is generally understood to mean a twelve-hour period of light, as confirmed by Christ in John 11:9-10 :

John 11:9-10: 9 Jesus answered, "Are there not twelve hours in the day? If anyone walks in the day, he does not stumble, because he sees the light of this world. 10 But if one walks in the night, he stumbles, because the light is not in him." NKJV

If we accept that Christ was working from the principle of a day being twelve hours, and a night being twelve hours, then three days and three nights constitue a seventy-two hour period.

If one needs to find further evidence for this point the account of Genesis 1: 4-13 provides it. Here we see again, that God divided the day into two halves:

"[God] divided the light from darkness. And God called the light Day, and the darkness he called Night. And the evening [darkness] and the morning [light] were the first day ....And the evening [darkness] and the morning [light] were the second day .... And the evening [now three periods of darkness called night-- three nights] and the morning [now three periods of light called day -- three days] were the third day" (Gen. 1:4-13)

From the text above one can see that three full days are equal to three night (darkness) periods and three (light) periods, constituting a full seventy-two hours.

It may seem a bit trivial to spend so much time defining a day and a night; nevertheless, proponents of an Easter resurrection have based the accuracy of the timeline on numerous and 'innovative' ways of counting. The truth is that the three days and three nights Christ gave as evidence of his Messiahship are exactly what any rational person would believe them to be, a period of seventy-two hours.

Good Friday to Easter Sunday

Since Christ was to be in the grave for seventy-two hours, it becomes immediately apparent that the Good Friday to Easter Sunday timeline celebrated by most Christians today is flawed. If Christ was killed on the afternoon of "Good Friday" as most Christians believe, there is no way He could have risen on the morning of Easter Sunday. It is impossible to squeeze seventy-two hours into that scenario when we consider what the scripture has to say on the subject:

"And he began to teach them, that the Son of man must suffer many things, and be rejected of the elders, and of the chief priests, and scribes, and be killed, and AFTER three days rise again.” (Mark 8:16)

Any way you count it, Sunday morning can not be three full days from Friday afternoon, unless you want to redefine a day and night as parts of "three days and nights", which does not square at all with Christ's clear teaching. However, this is the explanation and justification for celebrating Christ's resurrection on Easter Sunday morning given by most theologians today.

When was Christ Crucified?

In order to get this whole matter straightened out, it is perhaps best to begin first by determining when Christ was crucified. The Scripture tells us that the crucifxion took place on the day referred to as "the preparation day". According to Jewish practice this was the day preceding a "Sabbath" (Matt. 27:62; Mark 15:42; Luke 23:54). As we already know, a day is counted from evening to evening (Lev. 23:32, Genesis 1:19), not from midnight to midnight as is common today.

The Bible further records that Jesus cried out from the stake soon after "the ninth hour". This would be three o'clock in the afternoon by modern reference. Christ was crucified on the "preparation day" before the ensuing High Sabbath that began the festival of the Unleavened Bread (Matt. 27:46-50; Mark 15:34-37; Luke 23:44-46), which immediately followed the day of the Passover. By Jewish tradition, all criminals had to be taken down from the stake before the festival began, before the sun set signalling the High Day had begun (Matt. 27:57; Luke 23:52-54; John 19:42).

We read in the book of John: "There laid they Jesus, therefore, because of the Jews' preparation day for the sepulcher was nigh at hand". According to the laws observed by the Jews, all dead bodies have to buried before the beginning of a Sabbath or festival High Day. Hence Jesus was buried before sunset on the same day He died. It is clear that Christ's body was buried in the late afternoon sometime between 3pm and sunset on the preparation day preceding the feast of Unleavened Bread, as these scriptures clearly indicate.

Many who know little of "Judaism" are confused by reference to a "preparation day", believing it refers only to Friday when Jews traditionally prepare for the weekly Sabbath observance. Lacking knowledge of the Passover-Feast of Unleavened Bread, they do not make distinction between the "preparation day" of the weekly Sabbath and the preparation day, which precedes a Holy Day or High Sabbath. It is important to understand the Bible makes reference to two types of Sabbaths. The first is a weekly Sabbath, and the second is a Holy Day Sabbath or "High Sabbath" which occurs annually and can fall on any day of the week in connection with the Festivals outlined in Leviticus 23 (See Leviticus 16:31; 23:24, 26-32,39).

The book of John gives us a clear reference to what kind of Sabbath followed the day of Christ's crucifixion, "Now it was the Preparation day of the Passover (The whole period from Passover through the Festival of Unleavened Bread was referred to as the Passover, but the High Days occur at the beginning and the end of the Feast of Unleavened Bread)…” (John 19:14 NKJ). It was the preparation day before a High Day, not the weekly Sabbath. Thus the crucifixion did not necessarily take place on Friday.

Putting the Story together

What we do know is that Christ was crucified in the late afternoon and buried before the evening began. We also know that Christ had to be in the tomb for seventy-two hours, which is to say, three days and three nights; and thus He must have resurrected immediately at the end of the seventy-two hours, which would have been at the time of day we would call the late afternoon, before sunset. Finally we know that the day He died was the day of preparation for the annual "High Day" which could have fallen on any day of the week. If we carefully use these facts, we can clearly understand when Christ was crucified.

The first people to visit Christ's tomb and report He was recurrected were some of the women disciples including Mary Magdalene who showed up early on the FIRST day of the week, which according to the Jewish calendar would be Sunday (John 20:1). When Mary and the other women arrived, they saw a tomb that had already been opened (Mark 16:2-4). Many Christians read into this account the false premise that this meant Christ was recurrected Sunday morning, but in fact that is impossible. For Christ to have been resurrected on Sunday, he would have had to rise in the late afternoon in order to complete the seventy-two hour life cycle (Remember, since he was buried just before sunset, he would have to rise at the same time seventy-two hours later). John 20:1 only tells us that by Sunday morning he had already risen:

"Now the first day of the week Mary Magdalene went to the tomb early, while it was still dark, and saw that the stone had been taken away from the tomb.” (John 20:1 NKJV)

What Mary Magdalene and the others found was a tomb that was already empty. Since we know Christ had to be resurrected before sunset (72 hours after he was buried), it is clear that at the end of the seventy-two hours period came before Sunday even began, before the sun set on the preceding Sabbath day. This means He rose late Saturday, which fulfilled perfectly the sign he gave the recalcitrant Pharisees: the sign of Jonah's literal three days and three nights in the belly of the fish!

What day of the week did the Crucifixion fall on?

In order to discover the actual day of the week Christ was crucified on, we must count back seventy-two hours from just before the sunset ending the Saturday Sabbath observance. Counting backward we come to Wednesday, just before sunset! This means that Christ died on a Wednesday afternoon, the preparation day for that year's High Sabbath that began the Feast of Unleavened Bread. He was placed in the tomb just before sun set.

There are numerous other biblical scriptures, even prophetic points, that support this time-line. However, many will wonder why it matters at all. The short answer to this is that the true timeline of Christ’s death shows that the celebration of Good Friday and Easter Sunday do not have any basis in historical fact, and are in no way connected to Christ’s true sacrifice. Moreover, understanding the truth regarding Christ’s resurrection reassures us that His proof of His being the Messiah was true. Christ does not require us to understand complex mathematical formulas or reason around the obvious in order for us to prove who He was. In fact, all we have to do is read the four separate accounts that tell us when and how the crucifixion happened (Matthew, Mark, Luke, and John), count three days and three nights, and then we see the resurrection occurred when and how Christ told us it would.

so there you have. Jesus' crucifixion took place on Wednesday afternoon, and he rose on Saturday afternoon.

Monday, March 20, 2006

Here's your passport to Little Ireland

First of all, check this out (look below) :




isn't it cool. crystal and i went on a little tour in acid bar after service last saturday, cos it was free and you get to sample some drinks too. there were 7 stops to the whole tour, and it was only at the 2nd and last station that you got to try those drinks. at the end of the tour, they give you a guiness shirt.

the beer we got to try at station 2 was really smooth cos they left it on some machine that would evaporate some stuff (i don't know what) within the beer, thus leaving it smooth and creamy. very enjoyable. according to the lady, its best tasted when accompanied with some dark chocolate.

and then off to the last station which actually was my favourite. you get to try 2 small cups of guiness. the first one with added blackcurrent, and the other, the original guiness stout. love the blackcurrent one. very addictive. the original guiness stout wasn't that bad at all but tastes really ah-jekish. not my type. its got the punch though.

here's probably what everyone doesn't know, okay maybe only me. GUINESS is an irish beer. maybe its just the kopitiam retirees, who make guiness seem so undesirable. those rowdy ol' man who sit around with their singlets and brown camel shorts, wasting their prime years away gulping guiness down their river throats, feeling orgasmic when the ghim moh beer lady with the super mini skirt and thighs looking like roadmarkers on a map (vericose veins) and lots of cellulite, comes to serve him his guiness. its all about the image. when you think guiness, you actually think "ABC hei(1) pi(2) jiu(3)".

the tour has definitely been an eye opener. i'll probably be choosing guiness over any other beer next time, cos its extremely easy on the throat unlike the others i've tasted before.

Tuesday, March 14, 2006

return to me salvation

the interview's over. god help me, it is anything but promising. at least that's how i feel. but anyway, i'll still update parts of the interview i remembered.

felicia nah: so currently are you a student anywhere else?
me: i've been posted to sp's media and communications.

nah: oh so why didn't you put tp as your first choice?
me: i couldn't cos i wasn't eligible for it. i was forced to put sp as my first choice, and i got in.

(then she went on asking me why i didn't apply through jpsae and of course i told her why i didn't know i could and you know the whole jpsae saga)

nah: so what makes you want tp more than sp?
me: tp's cmm is more diverse and it holds equal emphasis on both media and business. whereas sp's media and communication has a greater emphasis on business than media, which isn't what i'm looking for.

nah: oh okay. so what job scope do you see yourself in upon graduation.
me: i know tp's has sociology and media marketing as their electives. however im hoping that after the first year module, i'll find a field that i like doing in the next few years. because tp's cmm covers both media marketing and business, so if one day i realise i don't really like the media industry, there's still business and marketing that i can fall back on. however, i'm rather keen on audio production, becasue i like how it sets the mood and atmosphere in films, and how it impacts the audience even without them realising it.

nah: so have you tried any audio editing software?
me: erm, no, not at the moment.
nah: well you should. there're lots in the market you can play around with, but of course the better ones will give you wider features.

nah: but anyway you know what the course we offer includes tv production, broadcasting and journalism as well. so its a full package thing, not like just audio production alone.
me: yes, they all interest me but i like audio production the most.

nah: so anyway how old are you this year?
me: im 17.
nah: wait a minute, you're not over-aged right?
me: no, im 17 this year.
nah: (check the documents) yes you're 17. you seem mature for your age, as compared to those i've interviewed who are 17 as well.
me: i've had people telling me i look like a nus student.
nah: yes in fact you do. maybe its the way you speak, and the sound of your voice. its quite deep.
me: (laugh a little) yes i get what you mean.

nah: but if you're given the oppurtunity for the course, you gotta step up to it and grab it. don't just let it slip by.
me: yes, like you always come forward and even be aggressive.
nah: yes you have to be aggressive. you always have to be there in action, and not standing there at the back of the wall, hoping not be be seen.
me: yes.

nah: well thank you coming down for the interview, and hopefully i'll see you in tp. the results will be out together with the appeal, so where you go will depend on the appeal results.
me: okay, thank you for the interview.

GIVE IT TO ME, AND TELL ME IM IN.

Monday, March 13, 2006

The Show that Shagged Me

these are the functions i'm looking for in a mp3 player (my dream mp3):
1. flash memory
2. 4gb memory
3. radio
4. thin and light
5. great audio quality unlike a certain fruit brand

and with that here's what i got from the it show...












a Samsung YP-Z5 black 4gb.

Samsung YP-Z5:
1. flash memory
2. 4gb
3. thin and light
4. DNSE
(unfortunately, it comes without radio and voice recording. BUT, the sleek design and rather tricky touch pad makes up for it.)

price: definitely cheaper than the fruit brand
freebies: SENNHEISER PMX100, some external speaker that i didn't like and gave it to my colleague, car charging kit, screen cleaning kit, extra SENNHEISER PMX40 (cos my customer gave it to me)

well most of the freebies are pretty miserable, but the SENNHEISER PMX100 is the ultimate. so move aside, you fruit brand.

Saturday, March 04, 2006

they say change is the only constant in the world

after spending almost my entire time online today poking my nose into peoples lives (their blogs), i came to find out that change other than God and his word, it is indeed the only constant in the world. what an oxymoron, isn't it. now i'm finally learning to use the word 'oxymoron' aptly, those times in school when i remembered ms choinh saying 'time management is an oxymoron'.

changes - those were what i noticed from those blogs i read. change of charatcer, attitude and of course the aspect of maturity never gets left out. i shall be brutally honest. im perceptive and judgemental by nature, and with those character traits of mine, i obviously perceive and judge quite a fair bit. and then i thgt to myself again, "why do you even bother so much?" the answer, "stop judging and perceiving. accept the fact that people CHANGE. so deal with it."

that surely slapped me in the face. but afterall i guess, i'll just learn to accept that CHANGE indeed is constant.