got nothing betta to do than this thing. have been receiving alot of these kinda 4warded mails. check wad i have man, you'll definitely feel lyke slapping me after this.

BASICS

001) Name: bella the cow
002) D.O.B.: 240189
003) Location: sumewhere arnd the world
004) Religion: relationship with Christ
005) Occupation: a dumb student. it ain't exactly an occupation. its one of the phases of life tt i gotta go through.
006) Contact: you knoe it.

STYLE

001) Clothing: t-shirt or blouse (checqued? wadever you spell it) with burms and sandals.
002) Music: anything nice. sumething simple plan and busted.
003) Make-up: no way.
004) Body art: hopefully. i want a tatoo sumewhere arnd!

RIGHT NOW

001) Wearing: clothes. maybe tree leaves.
002) Listening to: myself type. okei. so its hey mama! -goes hey mama! this tt beat tt make ur move mama! get on the floor and move ur booty mama! blah blah blah... rewind...!-
003) Thinking of: nonsensical ans for this whole crap thing.

LAST THING YOU...

001) Bought: aint't exactly me. but i made my bro buy cup noodles for me.
002) Ate and drank: cup noodles with coke.
003) Read: my own blog. was editing sume stuff.
004) Watched on TV: are you hot. -hot/not casualty-

EITHER / OR

001) Club or houseparty: cun decide.
002) Tea or coffee: coffee.
003) Achiever or slacker: definitely a slacker.
004) Beer or cider: wad's cider?
005) Drinks or shots: -dumbfounded-
006) Cats or dogs: nt at all. they pose a great deal of threat to me!
007) Single or taken: nah. virginity taken! hahahahah!!! okei. tt's a realli mean joke.
008) Pen or pencil: whichever i feel comfortable with.
009) Gloves or mittens: i'm not a cat!
010) Food or candy: candy.
011) Cassette or CD: cd. wad era is this man?
012) Coke or Pepsi: definitely coke. pepsi is jus sume black coloured thing, tt tastes realli aweful.
013) Hard or mild alcohol: hello? are you trying to get me in trouble with the law.
014) Matches or a lighter: both are fun to play with!
015) Sunset beach or the bold and the beautiful: whichever.

LAST PERSON YOU... AND WHEN?

001) Touched: the mouse.
002) Talked to: my naggy mother.
003) Hugged: myself.
004) Instant messaged: crystal. ask her how cume haven reach nexus yet.
005) Kissed: din kiss. wetted my lips.
006) Who broke your heart: the surgeon.
007) Had a crush on: jeremy sumpter. but i'm so over him now. ain't gaga-ing over him.

WHERE DO YOU...
001) Eat: oh man. i've not anwsering this.
002) Dance: miami dance? did it with audrey and mei ning during hpt pom poms.
003) Cry: in my room.
004) Wish you were: canada or sumething. but jus not singapore.

HAVE YOU EVER...

001) Dated one of your best friends?: no no.
002) Loved somebody so much it makes you cry?: its dumb to do so anyway.
003) Drank alcohol?: yep. mixed it with lotsa other stuff.
004) Done drugs: yep. penadol.
005) Broken the law: definitely. who doesn't, unless ur a baby who jus sleeps all day long.
006) Ran away from home: nope.
008) Cheated on a test: lyke who doesn't. but i try not to.
009) Had a nightmare/dream that made you wake up: nope. usually my bro shocks me up.
010) Played truth or dare: yes. but it usually gets quite boring.
011) Flashed someone: maybe. but my frens usually flash me.
012) Mooned someone: what's that?
013) Kissed someone you didn't know: dumb question.
014) Been on a talk/game show: yah. welcome to the bella talk show.
015) Been in a fight: often. with my bro. and it usually gets quite violent.
016) Ridden in a fire truck: another dumb question. my dad's not a fire-fighter.
017) Been on a plane: yep.
018) Come close to dying: if poking a straw in my eye, jumping up and dwn a bed and then banging my whole head at the edge of the bed counts.
019) Cheated on your boy/girlfriend: dumber question.
020) Gave someone a piggy back/shoulder ride: used to. did it to my bro.
021) Eaten a worm/mud pie?: drank mud b4.
022) Swam in the ocean: nope. i'm hydrophobic, but it isn't tt bad. jus afraid of deep waters.

WHAT IS...

001) The most embarrassing CD in your collection?: westlife. they totally suck.
002) Your bedroom like?: a total wreck.
003) Your favorite thing for breakfast?: hot cakes, scramble eggs, bacon.
004) Your favorite thing for lunch?: anything xcept rice and chinese food.
005) Your favorite thing for dinner?: anything xcept rice.
006) Your favorite Restaurant?: pasta fresca. ain't exactly a restaurent. but they have all tt i lyke.

ARE YOU...

001) A Vegetarian?: definitely not. its grosse eating all veggies and those flour stuff. eewwll. they make me groggy.
002) A Good Student?: depends. i select the lessons tt i wanna pay attention in.
003) Good At Sports?: maybe, maybe not.
004) Wakeboarding/snowboarding: i wanna learn wakeboarding!
005) A Good Singer?: definitely not with a real deep voice for a girl.
006) A good Actor/Actress?: definitely a good one when it comes to playing pranks on jerine.
007) A deep sleeper?: yes.
008) A Good Dancer?: hahaha. lyke an energiser.
009) Shy?: depends on whom i'm with.
010) Outgoing?: maybe.
011) A good storyteller?: no.
012) Last words: shut up, and jus mind ur own business.

added a new colomn.

had a fruitful day 2dae. had shepherding in the morning. and there's realli alot of areas in my life tt i've got to change. whew. there's realli alot man, and too much to mention. okei, so i've definitely got a problem with the way i speak, or to put it nicely. i'm consistanly sending out unfriendly vibes.

and i've not been a good testimony in skool. so then, how can i be salt n light in skool. and how den, can i impact the lives of my peers in skool. thus, i'm dettering pple frm advancing forward in the kingdom of God, all b'cos of one stoopid girl who claims tt she's a christian, but yet does all sorts of evil and mean things tt turn pple off. i realli wonder, wad's the impression tt i give. maybe other than the lameness, and all the entertainment.

and the more i think abt it, the more i feel tt the life tt i'm living right now is only of mediocrity. and its jus lyke any non-believers' life, or maybe worse. if wad makes me a christian right now is only cos i go to church, attend cg's and talk a lil about God, then i can realli say tt i've not at all touch the lives of those around me. and if i can have such great passion 2wards learning drums, den why not to the kingdom of God. the k.o.g is eternal, but yet i've chose to invest my life in many other things than it.

to wynnie (if ur reading this): thank you for correcting me 2dae.

i'm back. and am so mentally and physically drained. 2dae's cheering was much worse than tues one. dis tyme was with the entire sec.1 and 2n(a). and they're horrible. and i was assigned to 1agape with regina. so damn sick. and i saw this girl last tyme anderson primary in 1a. found her realli familiar looking, cos she visited my church the other tyme. and we both were lyke starring at each other.

okei. so i sound lyke a man now and keep going zao sia. 2dae's cheering was much more intense, cos not only do we need to cheer for both divisions, but also to engage the students in all the cheering and shit. and also, after both matches after the skool left, the hpt's stayed behind and cheered for yishun town. its was awesome man. and we taught them a lil of our cheers, and den got them all over to where we were sitting. and we cheered 2gether as yishun town-ers. sumewad quite sian, cos we keep doing the same cheers over and over again. we did switch on the radio, and the ooo-ah-ah-ah-ooo thing. and a lil of kampahteh.

mr.ang is lyke so generous. he treated everyone (wolleywallers and hpt's) dinner at this cockoo air-conditioned place jus beside the stadium. okei. maybe he's jus being nice, cos his wolleywallers won (both divisions). but according to she hong, he treats his girls everyyear. but in the end, me and drey gave it a missed. cos i had to rush dwn to amk to meet wynnie, budden in the end cancelled so went home.

my throat hurts man. and it hurts even more when i swallow my food. so dun feel lyke having my dinner at all, and jus wanna SLEEP! arrrgggghhh! my mom cooked my share, and i have to choice but to eat. and she dun let me sleep now. but i want to!

a blessing frm God 2dae, i left my bottle in skool at where all the hpt's dumped our bags. den when we rushed off to the indoor court, i forgot to take it. and the thing was, the bottle wasn't mine. it's my bro's. den when we were at the indoor court, i was lyke asking arnd for my bottle, or at whether anyone one took it for me. and no one did. den later during the 2 mins break, i saw the same bottle in chun fu's bag. and it turned out tt it was mine. he found it there, and he took it first. so yay! i've got my bottle back. or should i say i got my bro's bottle back.

oh-man. feel so lazy to study again. tomms having both e maths and ss paper. okei, so 2dae's paper wasn't tt bad afterall. quite excited abt tomms cheering session. so we'll be teaching the sec.1's first, and den we'll set off to yck indoor court. hope i dun lose my voice.

so tried. went to yck indoor court to cheer for the v.ballers. so damn tiring. we were lyke doing the same 8 chees over and over again, with all the stompings and the repetitive actions. ain't exactly having a sore throat now, but sumewad i've lost my voice and my voice is deeper now! so man. the worst thing was, we not only had to cheer for the c girls but also for the b girls, and i din know tt. totally, sehh-ed. and to think we left our class at 12.10p.m. jus to get ur warmed up first.

and warm up was horrible. everybody wasn't co-operating at all with the mistress red shirt, den in the end tt andrew kept making us knock it dwn. and he kept going, "knock it dwn! recover! knock it dwn! recover! knock it dwn!" and all the hpt's kept going, "-claps claps- hpt. over and over again whenever we knock it dwn or recover. it was horrible man. so damn hot and the ground was burning. i think we shouted more than we did in the warm-ups den at the court. an absolute waste of energy. and we did billy-ban-jang and as everybody was singing and moving, i was laughing my heads off.

audrey veri damn diu-lian man. can't exactly whihch impromtu cheer we were doing then, budden when shu hui cut us tt tyme, she stoopid stoopid gong gong cont'd and shout until so loud when everyone cut off. and it was hillariously funny!

okei. think i'm gonna fall sick soon. having a headache now and a veri bad blocked nose. and i keep sneezing. tomms common test: science (physics and chem) and i forgot to bring home my chem txtbk. deaded. shall go study for physics.

God help...

oh-me-world. gareth gate's voice is so... same to will young.they both sound almost identical. kinda lyke gareth gates songs. quite nice, though his songs always veri plain. jus his voice and maybe with a lil guitar in the background.
i wonder... how in the world does he actually get pass pop idol, when his voice isn't even strong at all. budden most of his songs, i think only the verses are nice. the chorus usuallly quite sian one.

2dae, when me and drey were walking at the yishun underpass this guy sumewad dived at us and gave us this thing. and he was lyke yakking on and on on about sume education stuff. at first i thgt he was promoting sume tuition or wad, budden in the end it was sume presbyterian church thing. den he was lyke going on and on abt how important education is. and he gave alot of veri judgemental comments, tt sumewad pissed me. he went on lyke wad, "now the world is siao one. if you dun study hard, den you'll die arh. if betta, go overseas and study" and all tt crap.

den after tt drey was lyke "uncle. behind still got alot of students. go ask them."
me: "yah. uncle behind got alot of presbyterian high one. go ask them."
den he went on saying: "this is the best church. other's are all lousy wan."
and he gave us this thing abt sume healthy spiritual life thing vs. unhealthy spiritual life thing.

i got quite freaked out abt tt thing tt he gave to us, though it seemed pretty harmless. in the end threw it away. wad exactly does he mean man. "this is the best church, others are all lousy one." i felt lyke saying, presbyterian so wad. tt long word doesn't mean its DA BEST.

ho. i'm jus done with my hist. only done making notes only. okei, so i shall go thru them once again, on my way to skool. i dun lyke memorising things. so hopefully and prayerfully when i made my notes jus now, sume of the facts are at least stored in my hard drive.

as for a.marths i have not done anything yet. maybe other than the miscelleanous ex for hmwk. aint exactly worrying bout it. i'm itching to watch t.v. din catch much 2dae. had been bz studying and finishing up all my hmwk. so bella's been a good girl 2dae. studied alot, and she does deserve a lil bit of tv.

tomms common test: history and a.maths. realli dunno whether i can pass both subjects anot. failed history terribly cos i din study. hopefully, i'll at least pass this tyme. will be chionging throughout the night for my hist. and a.maths. ain't exactly worrying abt it, cos its quite ok though i failed my class test by 0.5 marks.

so i'll pray tt God give me betta tyme management, and of course more wisdom! i realli need them man! oh yah, and also i'll pray tt God help to be less careless in my workings. cos i'm always scoring so low for maths, b'cos of all alot of careless mistakes. and they cost alot man, considering the fact tt tanger's my a marth teacher. so yea, i'll trust God for and i'll pray for you guys too.

off i go. study, study, study!

2dae's cheering session defintely turned out betta than wad i actually expected. shouted alot as usual. lyke duh. its a cheering session. i think i'm starting to realli use my diaphragm at least. din realli feel the strain after all the shouting.

and 2dae's a realli HOT day. whew. we were made to practise all our cheers out in the open, in the HOT afternoon sun. and it made my face even hotter and burnt-er. but thank God for leslie. in end he got all of us in the shade. tt toby poo is lyke so damn funny man. he looks realli aweful when he cheers. he got tt veri weird expression on his face, and tt weird body posture. den during all the pom-poms, me drey cherlyn liting and joyce, we were posing his veri ugly posture. though this sounds a lil evil, but i think lydia realli cannot make it as master red shirt. shu hui is lyke so much better. she's realli loud, and her voice is shrilling.

and all the stompings are gonna make me at least an inch shorter in my right leg man. so dear pple, if at any point of my life when you see me walking in a peculiar manner, pls feel free to buy me a 'leg-exntension-brace'. okei. so we're gonna be cheering this tues for the v.ballers again, and den again on dunno when.

so tried. and i was lyke behaving lyke a zombie, in church. half dead-ded. oh-no. my mom's angry with me for wasting my food. dinner i mean. din feel lyke eating. so damn tried. jus wanted to slp...

zzz... zzz... zzz... zzz... zzz...

arrggghhhh! i sorta hate my mao mao now! so dman oohh-gly. sumewad regret cutting. and i wan my hair back! oh-no! maybe i should do sumething abt my hair, lyke maybe use sume hair products to make them stand. but then again, i dun trust stuff lyke gel, wax, hair glue, and wadever crap you can name. i think they'll lyke damage ur hair even further, though they make ur hair look good.

okei. enough of hair. 2dae's a realli tann day. so i went swimming early in the morning with odd-drey. and i'm realli burnt-ded now. and terkey's so gonna call me a baboon/monkey ass again on mon. and i look realli red. and it feels swollen. and yay! at least my stomach/tummy isn't tt bai anymore. its tanned. and there's the obvious tan-line around my chest. this tyme din wear the reebok sportsbra, but the nike crossback one. sumewad, made the wrong choice cos everytyme when i get outta the water, it collects alot of water, and the whole sportsbra saggs dwn alot. feels almost zao-geng.

i should have borrowed my dad's cdans card. i din knoe tt on weekends, you cun enter the safra pool unless ur a member of safra or at least a card holder. den in the end, we asked this women to sign us in as guests. thank God for tt woman man. if not, we'll be stuck out there looking lyke complete idiots.

and then, had to rush dwn to skool by 2.30 for the hpt cheering session. had a total breakthrough at lunch 2dae. i dwned my l.j.s meal in approximataly 10mins. fast right! but tt does not include the drinks. confession: i hate eating so fast, cos it makes me sick. and you aren't even enjoying ur food. it was disgusting, cos i felt lyke a machine jus trying to feel my damn hungry stomach, without even tasting my food properly. and for sume unknown reasons, i felt exceptionally bloated.

hoho. my mao mao's realli short. but, i lyke. thanks aunty, for doing sucha great job! when i got home my mom was lyke, "why you cut until so short?" and den during dinner my dad was lyke, "why dun you cut shorter?" den i was lyke, "aiyah. dee. you always ask me to cut shorter wan lah. i dun knoe wad's ur shorter man. always ask me to cut shorter, might as well jus shave it off."

okei. kinda lyke my hair. though it still looks a lil weird. maybe i should change my parting, cos its making my hair pong. and the shocking thing is, I USE LESS SHAMPOO NOW.

i starting to love LIT more and more man. besides the fact tt we've got a veri crappy tst tst. but its realli fun man!

so cool. we did sumething lyke mdm.hana did with us last year. tt stoppid runaway train thing. but 2dae, miss chionh did the same thing but with cooler songs. yea... and they're called literacy sumething. cun remember wad's it called though. it was realli cool man. okei so. she played us, complicated by avril lavigne, ode to the family by the cranberries i think (if i'm nt wrong), and lose urself by obviousely eminem.

its so cool rite. and there's even the motherf's everywhere in the lyrics tt she gave us. and she aboslutely see no big deal in it. she jus got us to liquid away the motherf, cos at the end of the day foong lelong will be checkin' our files. and its so cool. we were actually lyke suppose to make inferences frm the text, and den find out the inner story to the song. it was so cool. can quite link it to lit anyway. it was realli cool! i love it!

okei. so i LOVE my sec.3 life now. but i realli dun understand why many pple say its reali busy and stuff. i practically love it! and LIT's realli fun! realli... i think its a blessing to be in this class man. since my results actually gurantee me a place in humility. thank God i'm in faith, and i'm realli lovin it!

I FAILED PHYSICS AND I HAVE TO COPY BOTH CHAPTERS 7 N 8.

scored only a miserable 2 out of 15. and i topped my class again, frm the bottom. seriously, i think i'm lyke so numb to failures. i dun even feel a single thing. its jus so normal to me now.

budden on the contrary, i feel tt maybe i should buck up. i think i'm gonna lyke revise my work everyday, at least an hour a day. i hope i stick to wad i've jus said. i dun wanna be a procratinator. so pple, pls take me for my words k. and i'm realli not joking bout it. seriously, i wanna work hard. so tt means, i will have to cut dwn on my computer usage, and stop playing my guitar so much.

oh-no! i realli dunno if i can stick to my words man. there is so much distraction arnd me! my com, guitar, t.v and the list goes on... oh-no...! God, you must help me! if not i'll keep failing BIG time. but tt's besides the point. and its realli not a good testimony for the pple arnd me man. wad a lousy christian i'll be, if i nv stick to me words. so GOD, YOU REALLI HAVE TO HELP ME. KEEP AWAY FRM ALL THESE DISTRACTIONS, THAT YOU KNOW I'LL SUCCUMB TO EASILY. AND GIVE ME FAITH TO BELIEVE IN WAD I JUS PROMISED.

and i need faith to believe.

watched maa yesterday. it wasn't as great as how i expected it to be. quite sian abt it, cos they keep having those stupid local acts. lyke tt stoopid thai guy. dunno wad bird mcintyre crap. his shit song is lyke so damn looongg and horrible! arrrgggghhhh!

actually wanted to watch the show, cos simple plan's on it and muh sugarbabies and black eyed peas! woohoo! and stacie orrico's got a realli BIG mole. and my mom was lyke, "woah! tt woman's mole is even bigger than her face!" and tt fergy woman (if tt's how you spell it) her voice is lyke realli POWERFUL man! but sad-zzz. they sing where is the love and hey mama until so damn horrible.

felt so damn sleepy and disorientated 2dae. oh man... my mom is lyke so dman lame. cos actually both of us cun sleep, and for sume unknown reasons she keeps popping into my room to check whether i'm asleep or not. and evrytyme when she opens the door i'll lyke get up. den in the end, b'cos she cun sleep she squeezed with me in my tiny single size bed.

conversation btwn me and mom when we couldn't sleep:
mom: aiyah... how? i cun sleep leh...
me: yah lor... me too. mee.. you can move away anot, you veri broad leh... and ur squeezing me.
mom: eh. feel priviledged tt ur mother is slping with you k...
me: okei. wadever... you see lah. b'cos of you now i cun sleep wan. jus now b4 you came in, i was going to sleep one. den now you come and disturb me.
mom: isit... you wan me to pat you?
and my mom realli started patting me!
me: no! no! no! no! stop tt! i dun need you to pat me!
mom: eh. put ur leg over mine leh... i cun sleep leh.
me: for wad. i dun lyke hugging logs.

luckily my mom went back to her room, after a while. if not... man.

test...

2dae's service had realli touched me man. during alter call, many thoughts ran through my mind. each leaving an unanswered question.

sumetymes i wonder. why is it tt i trust the physical things around me more than i trust God. shouldn't i be trusting Him more, since He's the one who created me. and since, He definitely knoes me much more than i knoe myself. shouldn't i then be trusting Him more than any other thing else...?

scenario: trust fall - hpt training camp.

it takes as much courage to fall back, and to trust tt ur frens are going to support you fall. it takes as much faith to trust in them, as we put our trust in God. i think this sumewad applies to our spiritual walk with God. when we decide not to trust Him, its the same as standing high on the table unwilling to fall back. so then when we put out trust in God, we have faith tt He'll bring us through the storms. and so during trust fall, we have faith tt our friends will catch us when we fall.

and this reminds me of belaying. cos the person has definitely got to trust the belayer b4 he proceeds to the activity. so if i were to be a belayer for the next sec2 promo camp, i get to play God for a tiny wee bit of a tyme.

thanks terk! its so much betta than my previous one! i love it! veri nice!

watches survivor yesterday. awwww... my favourite survivor jenna m. opted out of the show, cos her mom's realli ill. b4 she even came on the show, her mom was already veri ill but yet she still made the decision to go on the show. den in yesterdays' episode during jus b4 the immunity challenge, she annoucned tt she wanted to opt out frm the game due to sumeone who's realli ill at home at tt moment. she felt that she needed to spend more tyme with here mom, and jus in-case sumething happens, at least she's there with her family. its so sad man. in the end, they got her boat to send her off, and the immunity challenge was cancelled.

and the sad thing was, 8 days after she left the game her mom passed away. sad case man. wad a tragic ending. this realli proves tt no one is perfect. its lyke she's so damn hot. she's got the looks, basically everything. but yet, there's this part of her tt's incomplete. awww... jenna is realli lyke so damn HOT! she's one HOT women.

hahahahah!!! watched spongebob squarepants again! and its so damn lame! and i keep laughing and laughing, cos its so lame. hahahah! i think its probably the only cartoon i laugh about. okei okei. my mom was lyke so surprised when she saw me at home, after she knocked off frm work.

mother: wah... how cume 2dae so good wanna stay at home and accompany me for lunch?
me: no lah... cos dun have anything on in the afternoon mah... dun have any meetings or wad. so stay at home lor... later den i go to church.

staying home in the afternoons wasn't tt bad afterall. chatted with my mom about a lot of things. veri long nv tok to her about such stuff liao. usually on sat's i'm lyke out for almost the whole day, when i reach home i'll just have my dinner den either watch t.v or use the net. or its either, when i reach home, my mom would be out with my father. maybe i should stay home more often.

-sighs- there was no drums 2dae, cos lishan's bro 4got all abt it. hohoho. nvm den... shall look 4ward to the next drums lessons! woohoo!

thank God i found my a.maths note book at home, or else tt wai sim sure bomb me on mon. and i dun have to re-copy the notes again. and if i reali lose it, i will feel veri xin tong, cos i hardly pay attention in class esp during maths lessons last tyme. den now everytyme during tt wai sim's lessons, i'll be so damn bz copying dwn all those maths stuff. and all those tt i dun understand, i will lyke scribble the whole explanantion in words beside it. so if i lose it, i'll be wasting all my efforts.

aniways... thank you everyone who gave me v.day gifts though i hardly knoe the significance abt it. and hope you guys love the comdoms tt drey and i bought esp. jus for you all. it was lyke so damn maluating when we were paying for it. both of us were lyke queueing at the cashier when both of us got our eyes on them. took all 3 boxes of it. actually wanted to get the straberry one, but in the end decided on the Jeans one.

den there was lyke this women in front of us. den when she saw us with lyke so many boxes of it, i think she must be wondering why these 2 high skool girls are buying condoms for. unless... shan't go to the details. okei. den even when we were paying at the cashier, the cashier was lyke giving us this sheepish smile accompanied with a cheeky look on her face. den both me and drey, jus smiled back and said, "these are our v.day gift to our friends!" wah-hahahah!

to those who opened it liao, i wanna knoe how it looks lyke. nv see the Jeans one b4. but b carefull when ur opening it, cos its super oily! and DUN LET UR PARENTS SEE IT!

testing patience 1,2,3. bursting soon in 1,2,3....

test.

okie. i take back my words. woah... read she hong's blog jus now. there was alot of thrashing going on. and i guess i shall make my say too.

i dunno if ur reading this. to whomever it may concern. okei. how do i begin man. this is going to lyke take ages. oh-no... okei, so maybe i should get to the point. okei, crytsal i dunno if ur reading this, seriously no offense.

i shall confess man. okei. sumewad sumehow, i sorta diss the way you do things and stuff lyke tt. maybe drey, si hong and jerine had already addressed their displease and all tt. okei. so i'm not saying all these jus to eaualise things up, but i reali want you to know the truth. i'm sorry, but i know truth hurts. could have hurt really deeply, maybe lyke sume dagger tts pericing str8 thru u. but i'm sorry.

okei. this is bad enough for me too. cos not only are you my fren, but also my sheep. and a shepherd is suppose to love his sheep. it might seem really mean and unloving, but i feel i should be and get real with myself.

as a fren, i think sumetymes u are a lil pver-protective over urself. sounds abit ... but tt's wad i exactly mean. i'm not gonna name any examples, but hopefully you get wad i mean. and its the way you do things tt realli diss me off quite a bit, but i jus keep my mouth shut. i think you should learn to prioritise ur time. okei. i'm saying this now to you, as a fren and also as ur shepherd. take for example, ur hip-hop and ur kick-boxing. okei. its cool tt u pick up such stuff, but dun you think they might take up too much tyme. and they're lyke during skool days sumemore. if its lyke on weekends, it absolutly alright. and now you wanna pick up drums with us too.

dun you think its a lil too much for you to handle. not only do we have alot of tests and hmwk and stuff, you still have to lyke juggle ur studying time with these kick-boxing and stuff. i think on the long run, its gonna be reali tiring. honestly, i pick up drums cos it interests me and i learn it out to passion. and seriously, i dunno wad are ur motives for learning drums? okei. but i'm not saying anything bad bout it.

also, i mean lyke if you have the tyme for drums why not cg? think about it. furthermore, cg can also be as interesting as drums. seriously, i think if you have the tyme for drums and all tt, i think you would have the tyme for cg too. wad abt me? my parents dun allow me to go for cg and wadever more stuff, but still i make the effort to be there. its not abt ut presence or wad, but i think its the effort made. get wad i mean...

again, i'm sorry if i sounded too harsh with my words. but then again, i'm not only ur fren but also ur shepherd. shepherd=spiritual leader/helper. if there's anything tt you need to share, i will be there. if ur parents are stressing you too much, i can share it with you too. dun worry too much, bout wad we say. and do think about it.

this is sick! i'm not posting any official entries til i've got this whole frustrating thing working accordingly to the way i want it. and obviously the tag-board ain't functioning properly jus as yet. so sorry. i will officially announce it soon at poke, after everything's done.

probably got the fussy disease frm tanger. cun stand it anymore. i should get my tag-board frm deKap den, though terkey says it sux. but at least it's much more presentable then this!

so sorry for the inconvenience caused.

testing boarding...

testing again...

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