speak your mind.

man, i feel so guilty now. my parents got me a phone. they bought it together with my bro. and i hated it at first, cos its a flip phone, and you know how much i hate them. raised my voice a little when i saw the phone. and my mom kept telling me that the phone is nice and all. and i insisted that i hated flip-phones. and i rather exchange it with my bro. but well, its still mine. its a fridge phone, the same with my bro. its an lg c1100.

but anyway, here's the no: 9838 1460.

can't wait to get my mp3 player from my aunt. suppose to be a shared one with my bro, but i think i'll be the one using it the most anyway. since he doens't even dwnld any songs.

a brand new leash of hope and splandour.

sounds much like an oxymoron, but well. im a big fat loser, who pulled out of the hpt camp only after the 1st night. definitely no hard feelings towards the instructors. think i should thank shannon or something. maybe through an email. gotta learn to be appreciative to one another. and yea, shall do it soon. and seriously, i regretted a little for my actions. cos i gave up my cca points just for SLEEP. but nvm, still i thank them for my short little journey in hpt.

and yea, my aunt/godmom bought me an mp3 player! called me just now, to tell me about it. and it comes with a no. of wierd functions. feels really bulky to me. and yea, might be going over to my grandma's place to help with the transfering of mp3 files over to her dig. cam. she's got all the gadgets man! freakin' rich biatch. earns millions out of spectacle frames. hope she has some overseas enhibition again, then she can hire me to work at her office. all i have to do is to send some mails, use the com, use the phone, and wait for money to roll in.

promo camp was such a bore! we spent $6 for consortium talks, laughter session and food. laughter session was stupid. and according to terkey, we were all laughing madly before and after the laughter session, but not during it. totally agree. its so totally stupid. like you do stupid actions, to try to make yourself laugh. and seriously, it would be the most appropriate for the aged. though our school building looked pretty much like an old-folks home. still, we're young! you assholes, can't you see that we need no such dumb junk. and then the pricipal took the stage. its such a pity that mr.johari is in a coma. like he was still cheerful and all yesteryday, and there he is today laying motionless in one of the wards. think its a heart-attack due to his size. our prayers go out to him, and may God be with him always.

jammed at shan's house after camp. we tried polishing up on she will be loved, and its quite there already, though still not very. its a heavy bass thing. totally love it. we should be jamming on mon then. but then, i still feel there's something lacking in that song when we played it. if only we had a 2nd guitarist or a key-board, that would have filled up the awkwardness in it. but still, its rather well done, with 1 guitarist, 1 drummer, 1 bassist and a singer. and we might be doing also that thing you do. or maybe accidentally in love. some really catchy songs. if we could master them. and be prepared for some intensive jamming sessions. hurry man, we shall master are you gonna my girl. love it, and i have to hao lian this! but i can play are you gonna be my girl on drums! of couse with terkey teaching me the fills to it before i even knew which to bump.

to terkey: hurry, master the drums!
to sihong: hurry, master the bass!
to myself: hurry, master the guitar!

jam, peanut butter and nutella all wrapped up in a roll

terkey: pls get your com working, and dwnld gravity by embrace. and then we'll jam to that song. easy song, nice hell. and HELP ME FIND OUT HOW MUCH PEAR IS SELLING HER FENDER STRAT.

well, it should be obvious by now that we jammed earlier on today at shan's house. just love the drums at her place. you just feel so comfortable with it, not like those in jamming studios. and the bass kick is such an oomph. like OOMPH! hell, man. cool. just so love it, and yea, our guitar stand to liwei did served its purpose after all. he uses it now for his e.guitar. and great, his drums and guitar is now in the basement and not in the car-lot basement. sad, but he doesn't have a bass at home. or esle, it'll just be great.

songs we did today:
1. she will be loved
2. don't look back in anger again!
3. my own "self-composed" song. (it came without lyrics)

songs we tried:
1. smoke on the water
2. are you gonna be my girl



hohoho. sihong, quick come out soon! and we can do she will be loved with the bass! though i think its rather tricky. but well, it easy on the guitars. and i made it sound like a fart during the verses. but well, my fingers really hurt. liwei's fender strat strings are like sharp. razor sharp. and yea, i can do are you gonna be my girl on the drums! with the double bass kick! cool, and the fill-ins during the pre-chorus! sense that excitement in me, you bet.

sihong: i can tab you the bass tabs for my self-proclaimed and self-composed song. the tunes really catchy, and sounds rather christian. so yea, maybe you can help me out with the lyrics, and there we have our song. cool or what?

songs that i so wanna do:
1. are you gonna be my girl - jet
2. tomorrow - lillix

tomorrow's distorted. so, maybe a effects pedal or a huge amp for distortion. cooler beans.

the beautiful letdown

switchfoot. they shall officially be my favourite band now. really nice music, with one very horrible looking guy there. well, but he's like the most talented or something. cos he plays the keyboard and guitars and even sings. so yea, let's just say God is fair. but he jus look so sickening looking, and you just so wanna crop him out of the pics and wallpapers. i wanna get their album man! and i shall be respectful and appreciative towards them and their music, by not dwnlding their full album from i-mesh. that is if i ever could withhold such strong temptations. arrgghhhh...

embrace's gravity is also so soothing and comforting. embrace sounds just like some bra. forgive me, will you. when i dwnlded gravity, it was so soft and peaceful in the beginning that when i could hardly hear a single crap through my com. and i thgt the song was faulty, that i dwnlded it over and over again 3 whole times. like am i stupid or deaf? but well, its so nice and that would one song i'd put on repeat in my stereo.

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Gravity

Honey, its been a long time coming
And i can't stop now
Such a long time running
And I can't stop now
Do you hear my heart beating?
Can you hear the sound?
Cos I can't help thinking
And I don't look down

And then I looked up and the sun and could see
Oh the way that gravity turns for you and me
And then I looked up at the sky and saw the sun
And the way that gravoty pulls on everyone

Baby, its been a long time waiting
Such a long long time
And I can't stop smiling
No, i can't stop now
Do you hear my heart beating?
Oh can you hear that sound?
Cos I can't help crying
And I won't look down

And then I looked up at the sun and I could see
Oh the way that gravity turns on you and me
And then I looked up and the sky and saw the sun
And the way that gravity pulls on you and I
Oh you and I

just how lovely that is...

sailed away into a grey sky morning...

here's a little review of my eoy results:
eng: 33/50
chinese: 57/100 (but still failed overall)
maths overall: 59/100
paper 1: 61/80
paper 2: 42/100
a.maths: 19/80
science overall: 51/100
sc chem: 24/50
sc phy: 27/50
combined humans: 54/100
ss: 23/50
elect. hist: 31/50
lit: 37/100
paper 1: 20/50
paper 2: 17/50

so yea, failed amaths and lit only this time counting only the papers. but with chinese as an overall: fail. i hope i did improved. though im still a little worried about the overall with the combined CA and SA. don't know what to expect of my l1r5. please don't let it be above 40!

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im so totally lost as to whether or not take up chinese B. F.Y.I, i was one of the few in my class short-listed for chinese B. after what lee lao shi said, it did made sense. cos if i were to take up chinese B, then maybe i can totally focus my time into my a.maths. and try working hard on other subjects. but then again, it is just so risky for me to risk that one subject away considering the fact that we are taking only 7 subs. and if i really do take chinese B, then i would really have to work hard and score well for those other 6 subs.

but if i do not take chinese B, then still at least if i were to get a 9 for any other subs with maybe my chinese getting a 7, wouldn't that be better. its a 2 point difference man! but then, i just don't seem to see myself maybe getting that 7 or 8. that 9 has already become my relative. im not wallowing in my own self-pity, but really it just is a reality check. so yea...

also, i'm like so extremely weak in all my other subs. fancy passing your subs by just 1 mark, you just become so uncertain of the academic progress that is expected of you. and also if i were to take chinese B, then my parents wouldn't have to waste money on my soon to come chinese tuition. and they can just get me an amaths tutor. and like what lee lao shi said, amaths is a very dead subject. everything is fixed and if you know your formulas well, and you are able to execute the question, then you should be able to pass it. whereas, chinese is a language and its so impossible to master the language just in a short half year. or even 5 months. it just make sense..., and i really do not know whether or not to take the risk.

but i felt like i should take chinese B, and focus my attention on the other subs. and discipline myself to pratise my a.maths everyday. and jonathon said, he could help me with my science. if that really was it, then i think it would be worth it taking chinese B. but so many people's encouraging me not to take up chinese B. so totally caught in a dilemma.

somebody drop me a lifeline, and take me where i should be...

this was for yesterday and sunday...

met terkey earlier on in the day in borders. and then we (terky, sihong and i) headed down to that jamming studio that we got chased out of not to get another earful, but to watch david and his band jam. and needless to say, we jammed a little here and there too. all thanks to them.

david's band really cool. they're a bunch of middle-aged adults, but still equally cool guys. they played music that was of a total different genre of ours. they're more towards the guns and roses, led zepplin kind. god knows that era's music. but yea, they're really united which was pretty there for all to see. and you don't have to know how united a band is, to realise how united they are. if you do get what i mean here. though we got quite a earful from that bloody malay fat bastard again, still im glad i went. they're jus awesome. so many things to learn from them. and when they play, it was more of a free expression kind of jamming. like you play whichever you felt like, not as in anyhow play, but yea, jus playing according to what you felt.

it just bothers me when musicians smoke. like hell, haven't you ever realise that smoking just so spoil your image. but well, there's part of me that yearns so much to call david up and asked if we or maybe i could be under study with his band. or maybe, pick-up some new skills on playing the lead guitar. if ever i could get out of my present so status of a rhythmic guitarist. though that jus seem sooo sooo far away. but hell, i wanna learn to play lead. his guitarist scares me a little though. but well, who cares.

after david's jamming, these few ang-moh blokes came in to jam. and they did smoke on water too, which was what david and his band did too. cool song, nice intro, horrible tune. and the drummer looks like masashi. really cool. and there was this other guy outside the studio who had a classical guitar with him and he played she will be loved. all of us (terky, sihong and i) jus sang along. it felt great. just so spontaneous according to sihong. and it jus felt so good. lyke woah! that was what you really call cool.

well, if it wasn't that fat bastard i guess i would never had mind jamming in that studio. i don't know if it seemed like i was lowering myself or what, but i felt it was our fault maybe to a certain extent. but then again, he had a great fault in it too. but i just felt like apologizing to him, for whatever we did wrong. and peace, may we use that studio again. well, this is just my opinion and we're all entitled to an opinion.

so... just learn to let go of all greivances

something's wrong with horror movie pic.

well... how about this?

getting a little obsessed with fcuk's advertisements. they're really good. but hell, can't steal them off their official. maybe cos i jus don't know how to, since it runs on a flash player. but if you do find yourself in their official web, do checkout their ad's. its so nice! but what a pity. still i got this, and you might want to figure out how i got this without getting it from their official web nor gettyimages. sounds really stupid, but well, guess it yourself.

okay, today was really happening. for the first time, we got kicked out of a jamming studio. cool, huh. good lord...! earlier on, at orchard mrt station, terkey and i got to pose with this ancient artefact looking thing for this ang-moh guy. looks lyke some expat. but well, it was hilarious getting 2 fugly girls to pose with the thing. and terkey did some extreme stunt by spilling the candy necklace all over orchard mrt station. didn't pick a single thing up though. jus dropped and run. pretty expected, cos that was what happened to mine too! dropped all over the carpet at home, but i still ate them.

did a recording today at Ming's arcade. i like the studio, cos it looked really good in the camera. looked very gettyimages, and its jus feel so right. but sad, that guy is a fat BASTARD. well, we've managed to record 2 full clips, so hell to you. and it was an utter insult to us and our skills. and your bass drums was so lousy, that it needed a mike to enhance the sound. get it, fat bastard. dope dick. we don't need a fat bastard to teach us how to play music. hell to you, for everything you said, and i wished you saw my middle finger.

so yea, fat bastard, do keep a look out for a fat finger pointed str8 in your face with the other raunching your balls real tight, that you get so weak in your knees.

DO GET AN S.T.D, BASTARD

jus realised that contents body is so chunked 2gether.

to everyone who showed how much they cared: thank you all so much, and im grateful already to know that my friends realli do care so much abt me. thank you for the encouragements way b4 the exams and during the exams. and even now. and i think ur all worried also in some way or another, cos everything jus seem so real now. maybe even too real, and to fast a pace to keep up with. but i realli pray that i'd promote, and i think it requires a lot of faith to believe in it, cos i jus so doubt it sometimes. and i really am scared. don't know what to happen, and don't know what to expect. but still, thank you to all. and i'm realli thankful and grateful to all of you.

to sihong: i got realli shocked when you suddenly asked if you could pray for me. and honestly, i really didn't know how to react to it. it took me quite some time to process what you said actually. i thgt i heard the wrong words coming out from ur mouth. but yea, really i appreciate it.

and indeed, my hope dangles on a string like slow spinning redemption.

a time of revival for junior, who's mommy board got trashed by daddy.

a time for a half-raised flag, in memory of mommy board. let us now obey a minute of silence, as we mourn over the death of my bloody valentine. we shall applaud her long-lasting faithful service to the koh's. however, it is now a celebration to the start of a new life.

well, ignore the above if it was inapproriate and a sheer insult to ur intelligence.

again, if you caught the gist out of the lameness above, you should understand what i was trying to get across.

many happenings, and too many to elaborate of. forgive me if this appears a little offensive, but i jus hate it when people have things lyke "YAY! EXAMS ARE OVER!" all over their nicks or even their blogs. i mean, it jus doesn't make sense. how many exams and tests do you get in a year. so do you always have to publicise it everytime?

kinda excited. jamming this sat morning at opposite this hard rock cafe place. somewhere between the orchard forum and wheelock i suppose. realli wonder how the condition of that place is. if it turns out to lyke that swee lee studio in aljunied, then i've really got no comments about it. cool, doing some recording maybe with a blue screen effect if mrs judy kuan manages to get a big enough blue cloth. but still, im grateful to her for everything that she has done for us though i gotta admit her lessons are way boring. but still, salute her for her dedication. and also, we've got some special guests cos judy kuan's friend is watching us jam or sumething of this sort. feels lyke sume audition for some recording contract. but well, reali excited.

and we might wan to produce one dvd file for miss chionh with our jamming recordings. think im realli gonna miss her so much, if she isn't our f.t next year.