behind those laughter
a person who does not smile

first of all, im so sorry.

everyone's got a plan, and a thought will always remain a thought, if it hasn't been recorded down.

give me 6 yrs, to learn my stuff well. i don't think i should focus on a band or anytime yet, because my skills are still only mediocre. lots of stuff to learn, lots of stuff to be familiar with. and i still feel awkward with a guitar, occassionally. so i've given myself 6 years to learn as much as i can, and i hope my parents approve of this. i want to learn guitar frm guitar77, and i really hope its affordable. i won't mind if my parents gave me less pocket money. i just wanna learn and improve. palm muting gets you nowhere. what's a song without its tune?

i know its crazy how people would think it is, but i wanna learn even now when those O's are only about a 100 days away. saturdays are for guitars, and i deserve a break for working hard for an entire week. not that i think that those o's aren't important, but guitar is equally important as well. but of course God comes first, before all else. no, he's the centre of it all.

shall pay guitar77 a visit soon. but i've never got the courage to really step in, cos their stuff are so ________! its just beside luthermusic. and luthermusic is very friendly. very very friendly. cos i got to play their fender telecaster for a while? but yah, they're very friendly blokes.

terkey agrees that i should learn my stuff first, before anything. im excited about it. shall drag her down with me someday to find out more about their guitar courses. and when im free, i should go listen to more of my parents songs, and learn them. they're much more interesting than radio tunes.

and i'll work on songwriting as well.


who killed you, mister?

im still leaving
to somewhere i might find

im sorry i'll leave
sorry i had to make such an exit
sorry i had to break those hearts
sorry i had to scar your wounds
sorry how it had taught distrust
sorry how our lives have changed
sorry for abandoning
sorry for leaving

someday you'll find me

i see the end drawing
not with my running feet
but the moving scenery
the trees sweep past
the lights shine by
starry host above
guide us through once again

curse those lights that never shone
curse the air that's got me breathing
curse the world who got me blind
the blind never gets anywhere

the greatest dilemma of all dilemmas.

she says, "here i arrive at the fork road once again"

i reply, "yea all thanks cos i've got people who make it."

one day i'll write my letter of resignation.

play your song;
the one that blows my heart away

wow i've been out the whole day today. started off with jamming, and then off to church, and then to the bbq. the bbq was rather fun, though getting dirty with sand and sea water wasn't the favourite-st part. the games were mainly, water bombs, sand and more water bombs with sand and eggs and watermelons and tomatoes. and you get those stuff dunked at you. but i was lucky. had a couple of splashes on my hair and lots of people TRAMPLING on my feet. we played this 'protect the king' game, and i was one of the assigned guards to protect the king. and this brother was so excited, that during the game, HE GRABBED ME SO HARD LIKE ALMOST SQUEEZING ME. oh boy, and i looked horrible trying to protect the 'king'. cos he was kneeling down and my legs were like on his back, and i looked like i was humping. the posture was so ugly.

crystal and i helped with the fire. besides that was the only thing we were capable of. and its fun to start a fire. we were fanning and fanning and adding and adding and then back to fanning and fanning again. the food was good, cos they came in styrofoam packets. we didn't really eat much, cos we walked alot arnd the whole place. first to the rather far away toilet and then to the VERY far away 7-11. we really walked alot. talked alot as well. now i see the meaning behind such events.

i feel so blessed to have a someone over me (jiayi you know its you), who really understands and loves us so much, and seeks to give us the best. i've never had any sherpherd yet, who understands and cares that much, til now. and im so thankful for that. if that was how it was on earth, how much more would it be back in heaven?

if one day i were ever to be known for my songs,
i don't just wanna be know as the person with great songs.
but the person that God used for those songs.

when i've enough of your sympathy

i'll leave.