wth is wrong with my damn com. oh-no, it better not crash again. if not, my dad's sure gonna make me pay for it. i hate it. i cun access certain web pages. whenever i log onto these certain sites, this damn "Operation Aborted" thing comes up. and i cun view the whole damn thing anymore cos it says, "SERVER NOT FOUND" wad the fig trees is wrong with it?! holy damn ass.

self-control. arrgghhh!

there was wfl 2dae. lessons were great, realli applicable but! due to unknown circumstance, sumeone started carassing me and assaulted me both physically and sexually. tt somebody is none other than the infamous Phua Xiao Ting. wth. she slapped me, kissed me on the sleeve, and requested to rest on my boobs. sleep deprivation: the cause of such sexually disturbing behavior. maybe she was allowed to do so, since its HORNY MONDAY 2dae.

okei. for once, i planned my time-table for the week. lyke wad we learnt in wfl, you gotta plan specifically. so yea, planned the subjects tt i'm gonna study on certain days, including hmwk tt has to be done. pray tt i'll be disciplined and follow-closely to wad i've planned. if not, wad's the use of a weekly time-table.

2morrow got training. hope xiu hao trains us. its gonna be physical, but its definitely worth it. shall meet up with sin hui on wed then. realli xcited!

frreeeaaaakkky. my room was swarmed with bees yesterday. okei, not realli. jus 2 bees. and they kept buzzing arnd. and i was so scared tt it would sting me. at first i thgt it was a beetle. then jus b4 i was abt to sleep, i looked into the lights and realised tt they were bees. and i got a lttle freaked out. at first they were lyke stuck onto the lights on sumething. when i started playing my guitar, they started flying arnd the room. i went to my parents room and woke my mom up. she was so lame. when she went into my room, she freaked out too. she grabbed my guitar and tried using it to lyke swat the bees.

wth. i was lyke, "no! my guitar!" and she used my guitar to lyke knock against the lights. and one of it flew arnd, and it landed on my clothes tt were strewn on my bed. i was lyke worring more abt my guitar than my mom getting stung by bees. if my guitar were to go hay-wire, i wun be able to tune it back cos i dun have a tuner at home. in the end, i switched off the air-con and slept in my bro's room.

thank you Jesus.

sin hui converted! you guys mus be kinda shocked reading this right. i'm really happy for her. i was lyke trembling during altar call. i was realli nervous. nv felt tt nervous b4. during altar call when i was praying i told God this, "God, pls give me the courage to speak to her abt certain issues tt she's going through. and God, i pray for her heart to be open."

when i asked her whether she wanted to receive Jesus into her life, she was reluctant abt it. maybe there's fear or sumething. then i said to her, "i believe there's this part of you tt feels insecure. and would you lyke to recieve Jesus into ur life, to fill up tt emptiness within you?" and she said yes, and started waving her hands to pastor. i was shocked to see her suddenly waving her hands. cos we were lyke seated quite far back. i'm realli happy for her. her journey of Life has jus begun. and i'm gonna run tt race with her. a race to the start of eternity.

realli excited. gonna call her later, find out more abt her.

2morrow got seed meeting. telling my mom tt i'm going for sab's wedding. if not, i doubt she'll let me out of the house. so yea, gonna rush dwn to sab's wedding after the meeting. hope we wun have to eat with our hands. kinda cool gng for malay wedding. traditional style, under void deck.

fig trees, here i come...

NEWSFLASH: SIN HUI IS COMING TO SERVICE WITH ME!

i'm so xcited. sin hui's coming for ss! luckily audrey had her new hp no, if not i would nv have gotten through the line. i'm so xcited. yah, she's actually going out on a date with *toot*. she's going to his church. then i was lyke, "dun go! come my church!" yea, and she was lyke, "okei lor!"

i've actually been planning to invite her dwn for ss since the starting of this week. but no oppurtunity in class. so yea, i'm glad i took the initiative to call her.

prays that she'll be touched by the service. i'm realli xcited.

to audrey: hey! i wan black and white stripped panteeths!

NEWSFLASH: FANTASIA BARRINO OF AMERICAN IDOL WINS. USES ALSO 2 TUBES OF GLOSS ON LIPS.

i dun wan her to win! i wan diana degarmo to win. okei okei. as quoted frm paula abdul, "you dun need this competition." wth. but nvm.

stoopid sean is laming me out now. he's online, doing nothing i guess. wishing me good friday in the middle of the night. no correction, early in the morning.

my bro's shepherd is tonning at my house. and its weird man. when he popped up at the doorstep, i was lyke "oh shit!" and i ran str8 into my room to wear my sportsbra. and to change into a racerback. can i say tt i hate it when my bro invites his frens over, cos i have to wear a bra even when i'm at home. and since my bro's shepherd is staying over, i think i gotta have my bra on even when i sleep. damn.

sleeping with bra's on suck. or having a bra on the entire time at home sux. i sound as if i'm enouraging everyone to go bra-less. but yea.

the things you do and the thoughts you harbor, reflects upon ur maturity.

was in deep thoughts while on my way home. thoughts that din brought much entertainment, but frustration and insecurity. this issue has always been brought up into mind. the things you do and the thoughts you harbor, reflect upon ur maturity. well, tt 'you' can be anyone and everyone. sumetymes it irrtates me so so much.

maybe its the issue of hypocrisy. and do you practise wad you preach?

ignore me, if you find this totally nonsensical. but pls, do sume soul-searching. or maybe, pls find back ur lost soul.

okei. i'm receiving lyke so many this kinda mails from my cousin. seems as though australian's are so into it.

10 IMPORTANT THINGS INSIDE YOUR SchoolBag:
[Not in order]
1. pencil case
2. file
3. calculator
4. skool socks to change
5. wallet
6. keys
7. -
8. -
9. -
10. -

9 THINGS THAT U REALLY WANT RIGHT NOW:
[Not in order]
1. drums!
2. new guitar/ plug-in guitar
4. good grades?
5. more seductive shorts
6. more sports-bra.
7. sell off clive bag
8. clear debts
9. a nike watch

8 OF YOUR FAVORITE FOOD/Fruits/Sweets:
1. pizza
2. m.n.ms
3. pasta
4. cup-noodles
5. mango
6. banana
7.
8.

5 THINGS IN YOUR ROOM:
1. bed
2. com
3. lao pok guitar
4. mess
5. alot of dirt

4 THINGS YOU ATE/DRINK TODAY:
1. coffee
2. apple aloe vera (pukes)
3. laksa
4. bread

3 THINGS YOU WON'T LEAVE UR HOUSE WITHOUT:
1. wallet
2. keys
3. clothes

2 THINGS U READ:
1. i'm the king of the castle
2. chinese re men hua ti

1 Person u will NEVER 4get:
angelina jolie. hah! no. maybe miss ta-ba-bom lim, cos she begs me to do my work.

hahaha! does the pic by the left irritate you guys alot? tt's the whole idea of it all. btw its angelina jolie. and her lips are so so sexy.

i'm bored man. now tt phase 1 of exams are over, i'm lyke super bored. i have absolutely nothing to do. and there's no hmwk. failed physics by 0.5 but nvm, shall be guai and copy physics ans 3 times to satisfy see-ri-yers tan. but, there's this stoopid encoding thing on ms words. and i cun open the file. shall print it in skool 2morrow then.

my bro's back frm his camp. they went to m'sia famous waterfall for their odac trip. and he was lyke bragging tt he almost died at the waterfall. who knoes man. sounds so drama. but yea, he smuggled bubble gum home. dun realli fancy those now. feels kinda sick actually to keep chewing non-stop on those gums.

man... lishan, when is ur bro coming back. i wan drums! esp. after the exams when you feel lyke you have got nothing to do, and you jus wanna waste ur time away learning sume drums. i'm lyke bored to death at home. was playing the guitar the whole day. playing to most of good charlotte's songs. then tried playing bass again on my pathetic guitar.

but cool, figured out sume nice stuff. but still, drums rock. oh, wad am i babbling abt. shall stare at the pic below for sume entertainment.

check this out!



its okei if you dun knoe who tt girl is. but look properly. do you realise its jeremy sumpter by the side.

i'm going so crazy over angelina jolie again, after watching Taking Lives. aww... and stoopid terk is calling her fat lips. lyke wth. its suppose to be sexy. and not fat! its such an insult. and she's realli hot, trust me. angelina jolie's shows all revolve arnd lust, sex, crime and drugs.

she's totally irrisistable man. no offense, but if i were a guy i would want to fcuk her too. there was this little sex scene as usual in Taking Lives, and she's HOT when she does it. i sound as if i'm lyke lusting over her or suemthing, but i'm not. realli. i-mesh doesn't have angelina jolie's Girl, Interrupted. ita a veri long long ago movie, but i wanna watch it. cos it starrs her as a loony bin in sume mental institution. shall go hunting for it.

who has kazzaa? maybe kazaa has it. whoever has it, gonna get tt person to dwnld for me. then burn it into sume disc or suemthing.

NEWS THIS WEEK: GIRL WHO FAILS CHINESE FAILS AGAIN, BUT WITH A D7.

oh man... -smiles- no more F9, but D7. not much diff, but it is to me a huge leap. a D7 is definitely much better than a F9. its pathetic to get a F9. yea.

okei, almost pissed on my pants. ms. tang checked my a.mths notebook 2dae, and it was freaky. she was lyke picking on evry single thing and all i do was to jus stare at her. but i'm glad she din comment on anything further. she said, "listen also cannot listen properly. copy also cannot copy correctly frm the board. if you dun put in any xtra effort, you wun excel in ur maths. but of course not to say tt there wasn't any effort put into it at all. i'm saying you need alot of xtra effort."

i guess the 5/25 for a.maths test and 1/25 maths test made her say tt. and she scolded me to dragging my feet. dumb.

was debating with terkey at np pop. it was lame. we were debating abt the olsen twins. i wanna watch their show: New York Minute. sounds nice.

terkey: eh, -takes and points to the olsen twins on the New York Minute book- they look alike!
me: helloo. they're twins. you dun call them identical twins for nothing rite.
terkey: hahaha! imagine one day one of them wakes up and says "hey! how cume she's prettier than me!"
me: hahah. but one of them is realli prettier than the other. and there's actually sume slight difference in their appearance.
terkey: yah, at least better looking than you. hello... they're twins wad.
me: i knoe. but there's still...
terkey: ur contradicting urself man.
me: yah yah. i think mary-kate is prettier, though ashley is much more fashionable.

it was so dumb. went dwn to cold storage to browse at mag's and this stoopid s.a realli veri 'fei!' terk and i, we were lyke blocking the entire mag section cos we were flipping through sume magazine. and tt 'fei!' guy wanted to get the newpapers jus bside us, but din dare to ask us to move away. so instead his mom said, "excuse me!" so 'fei!' man. he needs his momma to get sume smaller girls to move away, instead of him doing it himself.

finally, i'm done with ss. 2dae's Lit paper was rather alright. but if we were given more time, i suppose i would be able to write more. was rushing through the unseen prose secion, and i wrote rather little for it. tt included the unseen poem too. but still, God is good. he's blessed me with enough points to exploit, and also the correct words to use so as to make my script comprehensive. thank you, jesus.

my dad seems so impatient lately. he hardly gets angry, but he seems bothered by sume certain unknown issues. think i'm gonna pray for him.

i hate guys who who are tone deaf. and tt guy is my bro. its disgusting. his voice bothers me. and he's i think either a cl or a co-cl, cos he leads worship occassionally. and tt occassionally is 2morrow. tt means i have to put up with his horrible off-key singing. i bet his cg members are also as tone deaf as he is. and its weird, he can nv hit the key of any song. even when i bring the key higher or lower. my bro is as clueless and hopeless in music. if one day, he could realli sing in tune and melodiously, that would had been the work of the holy spirit and not him.

God, pls let his singing fall on 'deaf ears'!

2morrow's lit paper is at 12p.m but we've got to be in skool by 1100. rather worried, but guess i mus learn to trust God more. i was reminded abt trusting God once more, while on my way to the rc.

God should be the One in control of my life, and not me. He's suppose to be the captain of my life, but yet there are so many times when i choose to rely on my own self. all things come from God. so yea when God says, "trust me" i'll go "aye aye, captain." hahah! sounds lyke spongebob.

2dae's seed was awesome. had a reallli long worship, but refreshing.

xiaoting if ur reading this: aren't you glad tt i'm mentioning ur name now? i bet she wans me to say tt she's chio and cute. but tt's not wad it seems always.

this is so lame. in jet's are you gonna be my girl, there's this part that goes "...big black boots." and i always think its big flat boobs. hahahah! there's big boobs, but since when big flat boobs.

i'm bored man. sumeone pls send feste to me. gonna finish up my ss revision 2dae. i'm left with separation and northern ireland. so yea, "God bless muh ass".

<--- chris frm Good Charlotte.

finally, i've got a pic up.

Good charlotte –my bloody valentine

Oh, my love
Please don't cry
I'll wash my bloody hands and
We'll start a new life

I ripped out
His throat
And called you on the telephone
To take off
My disguise
Just in time to hear you cry when you...

You mourn the death of your bloody valentine
The night he died
You mourn the death of your bloody valentine
One last time

Singin'...

[Chorus]
Oh, my love
Please don't cry
I'll wash my bloody hands and
We'll start a new life
I don't know much at all
I don't know wrong from right
All I know is that I love you tonight

There was
Police and
Flashing lights
The rain came down so hard that night and the
Headlines read
A lover died
No tell-tale heart was left to find when you...

You mourn the death of your bloody valentine
The night he died
You mourn the death of your bloody valentine
One last time

Singin'...

[chorus]

Tonight

He dropped you off, I followed him home
Then I, I stood outside his bedroom window
Standing over him, he begged me not to do
What I knew I had to do cause I'm so in love with you

[Chorus]

i wanna buy good charlotte's album. its already been out since ages, but i still wan it. you guys should check them out too. and their drummer, chris, he's inhumane. he plays his drums at an extreme pace, man. he wrists must be xtremely flexi. wanna attain tt kinda skills too. maybe, sumeday. you never know.

good charlotte, they all look feeaakky and goth. loud but clean, those kind that i lyke. had been checking out their bass chords on the internet. found some though, and they're rather ez. i cun wait for liwei to be back, so tt we can all resume our drums lessons, and yes definitely more jammin'. cun wait to play the drums and bass! exams are such kill-joy. but nvm.

operation mommy's b'day successful. my mom is so blind. she wasn't even lyke aware that i had sneaked a 1kg cake into the fridge, when she was lyke sumewhere arnd the house. this is serious man. she'll never know when i'll bring a bomb home. after she came home from dinner with my dad, i got my mom to open the fridge.

me: mommy, open the fridge
mom: for wad?
me: jus open.
mom: eh! who bought it?
me: me and wei wei.
mom: shall give both of you a kiss later.
me: no thanks. i dun wanna have more pimples.

but my mom was touched by it. so yea, operation successful. my bro and i, we're lyke so broke now. invested our allowance into the cake. but its worth it after all.

'thank God for mom and dad for sticking through together cos we dunno how...' -hey ya, outkast

finally home frm the oc. being a receptionist is quite fun actually, and we had to wear blazers(if tt's how you spell it). its was HOT man. and my skin was lyke sticking to the inside of the blazer. i was in-charge of counter 3 2gether with 2 other sec4 guys. and our counter kinda lyke skrewed up everything. we've got lotsa free loaders who aren't suppose to be there at all. alot of ex-phs pple turned up when they weren't suppose to. even the parents are lyke so dumb. sorry. but its lyke they aren't frm the psg, but when they filled in the slip of paper under the organization column, they filled in psg. and we sent them to the psg tables. it was sick. everything was lyke in a mess. and the table thing was confusing. but still, it was a good experience.

2morrow's my mom's b'day. and she's bringing my bro and i to peninsular to get our bags. so yay, she's not working 2morrow. so tt means, i might not be late for service at all. my bro and i, we're gonna get her a cake 2morrow. we're such filial kids, aren't we? okei okei. think the cake's gonna be kinda ex. and we've got only 23 bucks altogether. shall see, 2morrow. kinda xcited. wonder how's my mom gonna react. but maybe, she'll be touched. maybe...

hahaha! caught my parents kissing the other time. okei, they weren't lyke shy abt it at all. and they were blocking my way. so i was lyke, "eh! can you stop it!" tt's realli mean. den my mom was lyke, "why cannot? you dun lyke ur parents to kiss arh?" wth, i'm totally wadever. din know my parents were so open abt kissing and stuff.

zheng yang is such A jerk, that i wanna kick him realli hard on his arse, that his dick balls fall off. he lives up to his status of a jerk. he's such a show-off man, and he thinks he's the no.1 best in english and blah blah blah. wad the hell. he behaves kinda cowardly in skool, yet on msn, he speaks as if he's the whole world to himself. wake up, bro if you ain't wan ur balls dangling.

he's totally pissed me, with his insensitivity and arrogance. he keeps saying that others are the ones kping, without at all checking wad the hell he was doing. he was kping too. wad the hell? he's kidding us all with his immaturity. oh man. he speaks lyke his born of the virgin mary. okei, chill to me. but nvm, blocked that arse.

there's this beetle flying arnd my room, and its freakin' me out a little, cos its those kind that clings onto ur skin onces it falls onto you. and it realli clings onto you, lyke sume ring.

kinda xcited abt 2morrow. heah heah. yea, gonna get my bag on saturday with my mom. but that means, i'll have to go for the 2nd service. and i dun want to. and my mom doesn't want to go to peninsula with me after my service either. maybe, after i get the bag i'll rush str8 dwn for ss. hopefully, i will be able to make it on time.

feeling so tried. had the oc review 2dae. and im an usher. hoho. how much lamer can this get? its realli tiring, cos we gotta keep standing. but me and cindy kept 'eating-snakes'. we sat on the stairs occassionally.

shouldn't be at all using the com rite now. should be studying for ss, but i'm realli tried. hpt did the workout, and dawn was HOT. realli HOT. when a guys sees her, they wanna hook her up. when girls see her, they jus go 'man, she's HOT!' and the way she shakes, woah man. totally irrisistable. got caught for socks by miss ex-trim lim. she's so pian tai. she was lyke standing so close to me, that i can see every single pore on her face and her boobs were lyke nearing mine. and she went, "ah girl. last time always got problem with ur undergarment. now socks also need me to catch." and she pinches me on my pelvis (sumewhere there) then up to my stomach and up to underneath my boobs. and i was lyke "ouch! ouch!" but she's nice afterall. she keeps calling pple ah girl and ah boy. she called cindy ah-girl.

damn funny. she was punishing this guy. and i overheard their little 'discussion'. i heard ex-trim lim saying sumething lyke, "i'm not a girl. say tt again. i am a women." hahahah! yah, and a veri BIG women indeed. as quoted, "ex-trim reeellliii works."

yea, 2morrow we're gonna be released at 1.30pm. cool, i simply love the oc. and we gotta report to skool on friday only at 2pm, and there's no skool on monday! woohoo. can you hear the phs students rejoicing? gonna go home early 2morrow, to study.

God, i need more self-control and discipline. i get pissed realli easily by the actions and speech of a certain sumeone. identity: undisclosed. God, you knoe wad i mean.

feeling realli sleepy now. finally, i've done my a.maths. not all actually, but most of it.

i'm back to my occupation of a blog-vistor. been visiting countless blogs, linking here and there. hahaha! laughs to myself! i've finally found sumeone who agrees with me on sumething. no matter how funny or 'wadever' phylicia is, her plain english dialogue simple sucked. oops. sorry. i totally disagree that her speech is realli funky and all. i think its all crap and bull-shit. mind me, but wad can you do? slap me?

but seriously, i felt totally humiliated and ashamed that even a sec.3 student presents her herself in such a way. and its horribly disgusting. even the sec.1's and 2's are lyke so much better. you guys should have gone to tt princess lynn's blog to see wad she's got to say man. totally. though phylicia's got funk and spunk, but she talks way too much.

read roslyn's blog jus now. and i'm amazed by such maturity. the things tt i've read, totally changed my perspective abt her. i dun mean the bad way. but now, i understand why she behaves jus as how. her thinking's realli mature, and sensible. i realli admire her. and after reading those stuff, it makes me wanna go up to her and apologize for all the negative thoughts that i used to have against her. maybe i shall do that, when i see her arnd. usually, she's the one who sees me first and then initiating tt 'hi'.

roslyn, rock on...

newsflash: 15 yr old once again fails chinese again, however this time with a f9.

i thgt i would pass chinese. i dun mind even a 50. but that's not happening so. i did study for my chinese, realli. believe it or not, its up to you.

lets hope that i'll score well for english and as well as the many other subjects to make up for my f9. i feel lyke i need chinese tuition badly. no matter how hard i try studying for chinese, though characters can nv get into my head. not to say its meaning and zao ju.

sumewad, i wish that the marks that i've got are actually the minus off marks and not the actual one. but fat hope. 4get it. not gonna dwell too much in this. maybe God wans me to be patient. maybe He's testing me. maybe He wans me to try harder next time.

maybe... but still God has His best plans for me.

there's the survivor finale 2dae. its a 2 hr special, and i am so tempted to watch it. but there's still my a.maths hmwk and ss revision to be done. think i'm gonna do my hmwk, shall sent my bro to watch the show for me. after everything else, shall watch the reunion and then log onto their offical website for further details.

"praise the Lord and bless muh ass" -terkey

hoorah to me! -grins- i am so blessed this week man. went to my grandma's place yesterday for dinner after a veri long while. and my optician aunt is sponsoring my bro and i contact lenses! yay! she's sponsoring us the free trial ones. but who cares, its good enough. i'm already more than satisfied. maybe i should visit my grandma more often.

also, cindy found sumeone who's interested in buying the bag frm me. yay! prays hard that he'll realli buy it. and my parents are gng to get my bro and i a new bag. all of a sudden, my physical needs are all met. my parents shocked me with the killer question this morning. she was lyke, "eh bell. next sat daddy and i will go to peninsula with you and wei wei to but ur bag." yay! hahah! but hopefully, cindy's fren would buy the bag frm me. and i'll use the money frm that to get the bag that i want. hopefully i will get the bag that i want, and it must not be as lan as that clive bag.

b4 heading dwn to my grandma's place, went to peninsula again with my bro. and he wans to buy this dc bag tt costs 70 bucks without a 1 yr warantee. that guy is such a cheat. dc bags jus lyke jansport bags come with a 1 yr warantee. and they cun sell it at such a low rate, cos the price of those bags are heavily controlled. and they can only sell it at a certain rate. the same to deuter and many others. so yea, maybe tt $70 dc bag is a fake.

there's sumething veri wrong with my com. or maybe its veri protected frm viruses. i cun see the pic on my blog, and the tag-board. and that applies to the other blogs that i visit. this sux. shitty ass. and my dad goes paranoid over little advertisments that pops up in the com, cos every 'lil thing that pops up, he thinks that they're sume sort of virus or wadever.

chill, peace wadever...

heah heah. i'm back finally. com crashed and it cost 84 bucks jus to reformat. and its the 2nd time my dad has to pay so much jus to reformat the com. the other time, he had to pay 80 bucks. feels guilty for crashing the com again. okei. shall be a good girl, and save all my dwnlded files into a zip. but anyway, i hope he gets me an i-Pod too. den can transfer all my dwnlded mp3's in there.

yesterday, terk bought a pair of drumstix for only 6 bucks! and its the 7A usa hickory. the one that we all liked. its lyke 2 times cheaper than mine! mine is a heavy 5AB that costs 16 bucks! nvm, shall save my money to get the 7A hickory. then go dwn to peninsula again, to get them.

i want to sell my clive bag! its costs me 50 bucks, and its keeps tearing! nvm. my bag's with cindy now. she's getting her mom to sew it back for me. thank you so much. till then, i searching for potential clients to buy my bag. i was intending to sell my bag to any stores that doesn't mind my 2nd hand bag. or maybe i'll post it up on sume magazine under the 'for sale' column. but i'm asking cindy to ask arnd for me. i think i'm selling it at abt 35-40 bucks. i was also intending to take pix of it, and then ask lishan to sell it for me. since she visits irc. i jus want to get rid of that bag asap. its so ...! meanwhile shall cont'd returing terk the 50 bucks.

yesterday during a.maths, got caught by miss tang for almost dozing off in her class. and she's so smart and observant. when she caught me doing so she went, "bella shall stand and ans my questions. she needs to be entertained b4 she falls asleep." but at least standing up keeps me awake. when i was allowed to seat, i felt extremely sleepy again.