my head is killing me. gonna slp str8 after this. had gr8 time learning drums 2dae. it was cool, and yea! i finally mastered the rock beat 2gether with the bass kick. and wad's more, i can do it with the double bass. li wei taught us suemthing new too. its the beats to this song. dunno wad its called. and he took out his bass and electric guitar, and i was lyke drooling and oogling at them. got to play the electric guitar again. and me and terk took turns to play bass.

i'm thrilled. bass! rather easy to play. he taught me the bass for 'zombie" by cranberries. and it was chicken feet. veri funny. terkey looked a little weird with the bass but she picked up the skills rather quickly. or should i say, its simple. noting complicated. and we playing/jammin' this song. think its called 'last kiss' by dunno who. and den terk was lyke suggesting, we could all do this for our skool's talentime.

but that liwei veri crap. awhile after audrey left, he went 'hey. i shall leave you all to jam by urselves. so you all can have ur lil mini band.'

can finally blog in peace after sume very long tyme.

HAPPY B'DAY, JERINE!

so sorry for not getting you anything yet. 2dae's been realli happening. i was spinning and twirling my pen during miss tangs period. she wanted us to solve this a.maths question, but everyone jus heck her. i was lyke so damn sleepy, and i got so fascinated by the spinning and twisting of my pen. and the more i stared at it, the more i felt lyke sleeping. i was lyke practically hypnotizing myslef to sleep. den suddenly, that tang shouted across the room and said, "bella. you should not be playing with ur pen now. you should be playing with ideas."

our skool lost against jurong, and the v.ballers were lyke crying. after cheering had lunch at ljs with shan and cindy. and shan jus made sume casual remark and sume realli sensitive pple thgt she was refering to them. den while we were eating, they suddenly came to our tables, and started kao-peing. din reali catch wad that lian was saying. she was lyke speaking so quickly in chinese, and i caught no balls. and after a while, another women came to us. i thgt she was gonna make things worse for us, but din turn out that way. she merely wanted to find out wad happened btwn them and also to solve the problem.

she's cool, for a ah lian. cos she's reasonable and english speaking. and she's calm and all, wadever she said makes more sense too. den shan called up the police. and they came. but in the meantime, that cool girl and the other siao ah lian discussed things 2gether with shan. din knoe wad exactly they chatted abt. but they told shan that later when the police arrive, they asked he to tell the police that it was a mistaken identity. i would be lying if i were to say i wasn't at all scared. we stayed at ljs for a long time, cos cindy was saying that if we were to leave b4 the gang we will definitely get oursleves into a fight with them. so we stayed there. but as we were abt to leave, we saw the police talking to those kids. and shan commented, "hey. is everything alright. it was a mistaken identity."

felt lyke getting to knoe them better, as in not the bad way. then can shun pian invite them dwn for service since they also 'jia bah bo sai pang' those kind. might as well spend ur time on sumething much more meaningful. but i guess, its been a eye opener for me. saw the other kinds of lian that i've never ever thought they would be. and never have i expected such things to happen to the pple arnd me. but thank God, all went well. no casualties sustained.

joke of the day: why do indians lyke to talk so much?
for ans look below.

jus now went to sume optical shop with shan they all. i wanna get contacts for b.ball use. i doubt my parents allow cos my mom doesn't trust me. she thinks i'm lazy and untidy, and even if i were to have contact lenses i wun even bother whether or not its cleaned. and i'll end up with an infection. and my dad disallows cos he thinks i have dry eyes, or at least sumething lyke that since i inherit most of his genes and he has dry eyes. but no, i dun have. that's wad the optician, after that test he did. maybe i should save up, and get them myself.

had lunch 2gether with cindy and audrey. and that stoopid cindy left her wallet in this plastic bag, and the person who cleared our tables thew the thing away. and cindy din know abt it, only after a while when she realised her wallet isn't wit her. and guess where it landed. it was in this pail that contained all the food scraps. it was disgusting man! and cindy had to lyke put her hand in, and fish the plastic bag out.

shall blog more later. gng to finish up my a.maths. miss tang is such a murderer and driver. not only does she drives us crazy but also up our graves with so much work! we have exercised frm 7.1 all the way to 7.5 and its co-ordinate geometry. it sux. den gonna revise for my chinese, jus bought shou ce 2dae only. feeling the sense of urgency now, only after realising that our chinese papers are on next tuesday. and its our sa paper.

ans: cos their full stop is on their fore-head.

i'm having a serious headache. -ouch!- God spoke to me during 'I Want to Be A Sheperd' meet 2dae. okei, i failed the entire common test passing only chem, english and maths. and for our target setting, i wanted only to at least pass all my subjects. but as i was praying God spoke to me. he told me this, "why dun you trust and have more faith in me. trust me for results, better than jus passing." so now, i'm trusting God for a B3. sounds irrealistic to jump from an E8 and F9 to a B3, rite? but the God that i serve is not jus some self-proclaimed God, but truely a God of miracles and many other thing else. i'm gonna trust God for my results, and til then we'll see.

i'm gonna work hard for it and i realli mean it. will be focusing on english, chinese, lit and ss. since they're the subjects that we have to sit for b4 the june holidays. gonna maximise my time well, and if possible, dun hang out too late after skool. gonna plan my time-table of the week every sunday, til the exams are over. and most importantly, drink more coffee!

to jerine and terkey: thank you for always being there for me. guess you knoe wad i mean.

yay! finally the picture can be seen. changed it. the other one after the enlargement, looks lyke shit.

went for the hpt cheering 2dae at ccab. and its xtremely boring. not as fun as the other tyme. den after rushed dwn to meet terk they all for drums. i took a cab frm skool, and the driver din knoe where horizon garden was. so in the end he dropped me off at amk central and it was a free ride. it better be. den frm there took another cab dwn. li wei taught us this 8 beat thing. and its difficult. took me a long time to figure it out, but its w/o the bass kick. i wanna master that cos its mostly used in praise and worship. and a whole lot more. sunday, li wei and his band's gonna be jammin. dunno whether to go or not, cos i wanna play drums again on sun. but if i go, that means i'll have lesser tyme to study and to revise my work.

li wei's gng to germany and will be back only during our june holidays. so b4 he leaves, he'll be able to have 2 more sessions with us. and after he's back, he'll only conduct 1 session with us b4 he leaves for his re-service. arrggghh! i wanna have a weekly kind of thing, but i guess its impossible. and it would be rather unreasonable for us to do so, since he's teaching us for free and he's a busy man. but nvm. shall practise at home.

so mah-lu when i was taking 76 back home with terk. i fell dwn the steps on the double decker bus. i missed one step, and then fell all the way dwn almost to the grnd level. and it hurts man. my calves (if tt's the way you spell it) and back banged against the steps. and my shoes flew off my feet. and everyone was lyke staring. the bus driver thgt that me and terk were sisters! no way, cos i ain't got BIG hands lyke hers. and she's ain't got boobs lyke mine! hahahaha!

test pic again.

went to town with tweety berd. and she's so sickening. keep pestering me to give her this mag that i took frm pacific plaza's quiksilver shop. i took one only for myself and i even asked her whether she wanted it, cos there were lyke lotsa nice stuff in it. and she rejected my offer. too bad for her. den in the end keep whining and whining. i asked her to come with me again on sat, den we go take. den she agreed and even said that if i were to take it for her, she would shun pian go to my church. cool deal man. in the end, she cheated my innocence. and she wans to go there myslef on sat and take it for her. i dun wan! cos its so far frm my church. i'm walking lyke frm one end to the other all by myself. no way.

maybe see how. yea. but she promised me that she would come to my church after the exams. i dun mind. my bro's cg pple came over to my house for cg 2dae. and there's the elpizo cd on his bed. gonna listen to it soon. btw if you dun knoe wad that is, its actually an album produced by my church. i'm so gonna hate 2morrow. there's hist test and i wanna miss it. i feel lyke ponning skool 2morrow, but my parents would definitely oppose the idea. meining jus asked me whether i could make it for 2morrow's cheering session. actually we're gonna cheer for the wolleywoll 'b' division girls. feel lyke going. cos its fun cheering to actually cheer ur lungs out. and furthermore, if we are in it we will be dismissed early from skool. so maybe can miss history.

mr.tan is so funny 2dae. used me as an example cos he caught me toking and and luffin with tom yam. we were discussing abt pimples, craters, volcanoes and lipo suction. highly entertaining. shall go do mind-map for history, while revising for it as well.

aw. my left wrist hurts. was figuring 'for this cause' for my bro, cos he doesn't know how to play that song and he's the guitarist for his cg 2morrow. i hate playing bar chords on my stoopid guitar. so damn lan-pei. that song's in the f key, and its difficult cos there's eb in it. and eb stretches all the way to the sixth fret. then i tried going up one key, which is in the G family. and the song sounds horrible in that key. my bro's absolutely cluessless abt wad i'm saying. nvm.

went for cg 2dae. rushed dwn and then rushed back for training. thank God for xiuhao. i doubt sen sen knoes anything abt cg. so i jus xplained to him that i had sume church stuff 2dae, that's why i was late. den he went on and on as usual. sumetymes its rather useless xplaining to him abt church stuff. he jus doesn't get it. den xiuhao covered up for me, cos she goes to chuch and cg's too and she understands much better. one good thing abt having a christian senior, you can relate better. but 2dae's training veri slack. i gotta admit i lyke torturous trainings. its tiring but fun. i wan xiuhao to train us. sen sen train us damn boring, and they're lyke rather useless in a way.

i almost forgot abt physics hmwk. 2morrow gonna go town with that berd. she wans to get a new wallet for herself, den maybe we also shunpian get a b'day gift for jerine. i'm so gonna be broke. shall return $10 to terk this week, if i can and the other $10 next week. and then i'll owe her nothing. yay! and then i'll cont'd clearing my $60 debt with crystal. woohoo! cun wait for that day when i'll be officially debt free. counting dwn to the days till then.

2dae's lit was great man. cos we din realli do much, but crapped alot with that tst. we were doing this conformity vs. non-conformity thing i think when we all got veri off track. and we were all crapping alot. and that tst was also veri full of crap. but i lyke her. she keeps amusing us with all her nonsense. yesterday, she was lyke dancing in our class. and it was hilarious.

then that tst was lyke saying, "dun worry, i will not leave this service until i've found a waitressing job that pays me 3k and above." and i'm lyke, "huh. miss tan. where got waitressing job pay so much wan?" den she was lyke, "exactly. i knoe that you all love me alot rite. so can i trust you all to source out of for waitressing jobs that pays me 3k and above?" she's so damn bhb man. but damn funny. and i'm always veri alive during her lessons, though sumetymes it gets realli boring. but still, i lyke it.

this is so sickening. i jus cun seem to upload my pic on angelfire, but how cume lishan can? forget. i'll jus save it to sume diskette and then go over to her house to get it done.

went to cut mao mao 2dae with terk, lishan and cindy. lyke my hair better now. its not as umkempt and less china doll looking. there's training 2morrow, but i should be missing part of it cos gotta rush dwn for cg 2morrow. den after that rush back dwn to skool, and most prob punishment as usual 20 rounds + pumpings. but sumewad i dun wanna miss that lil part of training too. cos usually we'll be running with that medicine ball. its fun, but if there's lyke veri little pple present, den running rounds seem absolutely undesireable. at least when the entire team's present, and we all run 2gether its becomes much more enjoyable. and i'll always be the one to ask the person in-front leading to run slower.

seriously, i'm rather reluctant abt gng for cg not cos i wanna miss it. but i dun wanna miss training. arggh. i hate making decisions lyke this. but i guess most prob i'll be gng for cg. i'm having weird mense. dun getit nvm. audrey you know wad i mean. shall not go to the details. thought provoking. was veri entertained by cindy 2dae. when were having lunch 2gether, i dunno why suddenly we were discussing abt twins. then cindy and terkey they were lyke saying, "if i were to have 8 kids all at a go, i'll kill them!" its so funny! then cindy was lyke, "no. i think i'll suffer frm post-natal blues and then jump off the building!" for mothers who gave birth to twins, no offense. but i think at the end of the day ur vagina is gonna lose it elasticity that it hangs loose.

then when we were at the salon, cindy was lyke asking the aunty in chinese, "aunty. yao zen me yang jian tou fa, then tou fa bu hui duan?" wad kind of stoopid question is that. you wanna cut ur hair but you dun wan it to be short. its the same as inventing a solar-energy torch and fire-proof match sticks.

mind my pic. trying resize it.

i'm gonna hate 2morrow. first of all, hpt's gotta report in skool by 6.30am in red shirt. whoever's late will be dealt with severly by shannon. wth. 6.30? that's usually lyke the time when i wake. and we're all suppose to do this xtremely lame cheer for miss.fong cos she's leaving. of all cheers a stoopid one lyke this. it really doesn't make sense. its stoopid, and there's shame and humiliation right up my face. and i dun wanna be involve with the oc! i dun wanna do that wadever lame workout thing. wth! its stoopid, and we're lyke aerobics instructors or sumething. and the thing is, it usually clashes with my church cg schedules. and which do you think i'll choose. cg defintely.

its stoopid. soon i bet i'm gonna be lyke the phantom of hpt, jus lyke that yah yah ku cha they all. if there was a reason why i hate hpt, it would be bcos they dun practise impartiality. most of the girls get their way arnd cos they flirt and they suck up to the asses of the instructors. and that grosses me out a whole tonne. at least clement and jordan they stand out amidst them. cos they're christians? ha. no. but at least they make sure everyone is treated with fairly.

okei. i read sume stuff that i think i should not have known, and yes it disturbs me. lots of angst and frustration, but not gonna have them clearly written all over me. one good thing abt not having drums as yet, i have the entire sunday to finish wadver that needs to be done. belive it or not. i actually did the chinese forum thing. din write much, due to very limited chinese vocab.

there's lyke so many things happening arnd me, that i hate so much. even the way pple react to things, its jus irritates me so much. pple are so fake sumetymes. they put on this mask that maybe enables them to acheive wadever they aspire. that's jus not their way of life. and get real.

walking away.

went to meet up my pl contact in the morning, but in the end she din go for service. meet her at serangoon train station at 11.15. den went dwn to city hall cos she was suppose to meet sumeone to pass that person sumething. after that, went dwn to orchard. and i overstayed in the station, and i had to pay $2. sick. she said she was hungry, so i had lunch with her. and after lunch jus as we were abt to leave mac's for service she suddenly say that she needed to meet her godsis at kovan mrt at 2p.m.

den i was lyke, "huh? how cume? den you cannot cume my church already arh?" i was rather pissed to a certain xtent. in the end walked her to the train station, while i rushed back to nexus to meet jeannie they all. i guess all peace and comfort comes frm God.

this was wad i wanted to blog yesterday. yay! i'm quite xcited cos i've got a confirmed pl contact coming for service this week. and the other thing is, she told me she believed in Jesus. yay! reali xcited. pray that she'll convert. i'm veri xicited. so yea, b4 service since she has nothing to after her cca which ends at 11am, shall hang out with her arnd town first b4 heading dwn for service. and she was lyke suggesting that we take neoprints, and i'm lyke "erm..." i dun knoe why i dun lyke taking neoprints. and she likes! oh-no!

but... for the sake of my contact i shall. i'm gonna be lyke so damn pai-seh. intend to drag crystal dwn with me, since she lyke taking neoprints too. but she has ncc b4 service. and my contact lykes 5566. and i dun even bother abt them. i'm gonna be so dead. God, hear my sos! shall not complain. that's wad i learnt frm my q.t.

as for 2dae:
cindy scared the shit outta me, when she suddenly told me that i had to go for dc tomorrow. and i'm lyke, "huh? but for wad? i got do my physics wad and i did handed it in?" i cun afford to go for dc, cos tomorrow got cg. and i cun miss it, cos i already missed wed's one. rather stoopid. tbs wanted to put me in dc, cos i did not draw diagrams for the chapters that i owe him. but thank God, he gave us another chance and we have to re-do everything and hand them in again on tues. my weekends are gonna be spent to copying chapters. sucha waste of time, and that means i'll have lesser tyme to revise for my ss and hist.

i'm quite xcited abt this yr's Harvest. its so cool. cun wait to see it. our class photo's gonna be a lil xplicite with us all lying on the grnd in-front of the entire class with our legs all wide open. den miss chionh was lyke, "eh. dun do that lah. veri obscene leh. den where i stand?" and i went, "nah. you can lye here." cos i opened my legs even wider for her! veri ugly. looks lyke sume women in labor. sumwad i dun think our grp photo will look good. but still, i'm xcited abt the whole thing.

i'm having irregular sleeping hours, and the next day i'll be feeling extremely sleepy. esp, during ms.tang's lessons cos i cun talk or laugh during her lessons. worst of all, my father makes me milo instead of coffee for breakfast now. cos i keep complaining that i have gastric after drinking coffee.

i want to change for God. i think i've been taking my work much more seriously now. and i copy less. thank God for that. and jiahui and tom yam got quite shock when they realise that i did do my physics assignment. and this time, i was the one lending them my work to copy. 2dae's been realli chaotic in skool. veri happening and alot of pple got quite pissed. all b'cos of the photo taking thing. wah... rather reluctant to be grouped 2gether with jiale they all. they're lyke so -blank- and its gonna be for the harvest magazine. and worse of all, miss tangs in our grp. i think i'm gonna look lyke shit man, cos i wun dare to fool arnd. sumewad also, qiute mean if we reject jaron they all. cos they have no groups. nvm. shall be hao xin ren.

there's ss and a.marths test 2morrow. and i think i'm gonna so panic for a.marths test. later gonna cont'd on my ss mindmap, and to also shun pian study for 2morrow's test. 2dae's lit test wasn't that bad, though i cun gurantee that i'll pass. but since God ask of us to do our best and he'll do the rest, i shall trust that with the effort that i put in, it will be justified. so yea, gonna study hard for a.marths and ss.

oh yah. remembered sumething. one simple reason why christians should lead a godly and blameless life, cos pple judge you the way you are. also, the world judge you and expect more of you jus b'cos ur a christian. that struck me when i was watching america's next top model yesterday. cos elyse commented sumething lyke, "i doubt she even knoes wad being a good christian is all abt." the way i'm living my life right now, its doesn't at all protray the goodness of God. i want my life to be justified according to God's will, and i pray that this will not be another procrastination.

i cun sleep. i feel lyke sucha good girl today. studied/do hmwk almost the whole day. woke up at 12.30 had brunch. probably lunch already. then did english letter writting and journal. rested. then did physics. bathe and dinner. then did a lil of a.maths. studied for s.s. did mind-map for it. then watched tv for 15 mins. did a.maths again til now.

woo. the a.maths questions are tough enough to exhaust all my brain cells. din manage to finish everything. but yay, i did physics! probably no big deal. suddenly feel so scared again. scared as in freaking out. gonna have 3 tests this week and its one after another. tues: lit on 12th nights i think. wed: a.maths, thurs: maths. and i dun wanna fail. i've failed my physics and chinese already.

i realli envy my cousin. she's same age as me, and she's studying in australia. and they're always having holidays. and its lyke quite slack there. i wan that too man. everyone's realli competitive and if you dun keep up with the pace, u'll be left behind. sumewad i think i'll retain this year. seriously speaking. i'm lyke struggling big time with my studies man, since last year. or maybe i suck big time in my humanities. so much memorising to do, and i hate memorising stuff. it drives me crazy. realli veri pei fu terkey man. she's lyke sume human computer tt memorizes almost every single thing in the txtbk. balls to our education system. balls to it.

while i was revising my ss, my dad suddenly reminded of all the stupid things i did when i was a kid. you know the scar on my left brow, i got it when i was 4. i was jumping up and dwn on my granma's bed, when i fell and banged my head into the edge of the bed. and i got this veri deep cut that need to be stitched up. they rushed me to t.t.s and the doctor stitched up the wound without giving me the anasthesia. cos my dad said i was too young and it would damage my brain. and my dad was lyke going on and on abt it. den he was saying that when they stitched me up, i was screaming lyke hell. but i dun even remember a thing, other than banging my head against the edge of the bed.

maybe that explains why i've got a realli deep voice for a girl. i did alot of stoopid things last time. and they're realli stoopid. there was once when i was on my father's car, and i was holding on to a macdonalds straw. the car jerked and i ramed the straw into the my eye. stoopid right. and my parents rushed me to t.t.s again. but obviously nothing happened.

yo bro. had alot of fun during service 2dae. its realli explosive, and everyone's all excited. though jerine din make it, but we still had fun. jeannie, phyllis and guan jing came 2gether with this girl called wei tong. haven seen them for a realli long time. a pity they left church. maybe i should invite them dwn again for service next week. den their fren wei tong had to leave early cos she had sume course. while i sent her out, she kept thanking and apologizing to me. and i'm lyke, "sure. no problem." all they way. and she told that she believes in Jesus, but her mom doesn't allow her to be a christian. the thing is, she isn't a christian and she doesn't attend any church.

i want her to come for service next week. and there's a veri high chance that she'll convert. but even if she comes, she would have to leave early. this kind of pple veri hard to come by. during alter call, asked jeannie they all abt how they are now with God. i'm wondering, under wad circumstances would it be considered that sumone has backslided. this bothers me. right now, i know that i should focus on having converts frm pl. but at the back of my mind, i'm still thinking there's this grp of pple who needs God badly at this time. i'm confused.

yo bro. yea. tt''s gonna be my greeting to everyone i meet. yo bro. hahahah!!! yesterday, went shan's house to do project work. tt was wad we were suppose to do, but ended up slacking arnd. and we were hunting up and dwn her house for the keys to the storeroom to play drums. good exercise. run up and dwn her house.

den rushed dwn to marina bay for cg outing. reached there rather late. stayed there for a while, until it looked as if it was gonna pour. afte tt headed for town with jewell to meet jerine they all. it was so funnny! had alot of fun at far-east. not of the 'shopping' but rather free amusment by sume ang moh's who keep going, "use ur brains, bro. it ain't me alright!" hahaha! and started amusing everyone with the yo bro! pretty cool. and we ending our sentences with a bro. so yea, bro. tt's exactly wad i mean, bro. cool, bro!

hahah! den i was lyke telling them next tyme when i pray i'll address jesus as bro. cos there's this praise song tt goes, 'God is our father and he has made us his children. make jesus our brother ...' so yea jesus is my bro. so next tyme when i pray i'll be lyke "in bro's name i pray, amen." yea man.

i'm realli xcited abt 2dae's service. jerine's coming. and jeannie, phyllis and guan jing too!

called up a few of my contacts jus now. a few= 2. wad's wrong with girls frm girls skools man. its insane. called jus to talk to them, to get to knoe them better and to invite them dwn for service.

okei, so i called this girl up. her name's rui yi. during our conversation, i was asking her whether she knoes this other person who's also frm pl. den she went lyke, "oh. i dun lyke her. cos she's always sucking up to teachers ass." and she goes on complaining to me and all. deep in me i was lyke thinking, "wad's wrong with these pple man. or is this jus the trend in girls' skool? or was that back-stabbing?" and this is defintely not the first tyme already. pl primary also the same. these pple are jus so real abt their feelings. and its scares me man.

maybe cos that doesn't occur in our skool. or maybe i do, do that too but jus that i dun see myself doing it. but i dun exactly hate anyone. and i dun usually get angry for long. its goes away quite fast. and pple knoe that i usually maipulate other's mind with the things that i say.

2dae's training was great, though tiring. i think xiuhao's got realli good leadership qualities, which explains why the entire team submits willing to her. but i think she veri steady. through 2dae's training, it realli taught us the value of teamwork. teamwork makes any task given much mor enjoyable and pleasureable. ran 10 rounds round both courts as usual, but this time with a twist to it. we were made to pass this dunno how many pounds medicine ball, while running. and evrytyme the ball reaches the last person, that last person has to sprint all the way to the front, and then cont'd passing the ball behind. it was horrible. we were suppose to toss it over our heads to the person behind us. and whenever sumone drops it, we've all got to do 10 pumpings.

we dropped the ball alot of times! and i think we did more than 100 pumpings. we defintely dropped it more than 10 times. not only did we do pumpings, we did crunches too. and also this jumping thing. and the more we pump, the less strength we have to toss tt medicine ball behind us. no strength= drop ball= pumping/crunches/jump= no strength. initially i thgt i sure cannot make it wan. cos slack too much. i'll lyke take my own sweet time and run. but yea, managed to catch up with everyone. and its so suay to be the person to always be behind cindy, cos she's keeps throwing the ball up instead of back. and after she throws, i'll have to cheong a little to catch the ball. with teamwork, it does make the punishment less tiring.

when we were running, alot pple mistook b.ball for taf club. it was so stoopid. and the warming up was so effective. cos i had more strength to shoot. and the ball felt so light man. do lay-up tt tyme, got more strength to shoot even frm afar.

wad we did for training:
1. run 10 rounds round netball and b.ball court with medicine ball (punishment: 10pumping/crunches/jump whenever the ball touches the grnd)
2. 60 layups.
3. AB shang lan: 25
4. rope skipping
5. run stairs arnd the skool with medicine ball
6. run round skool once
7. play match

now training's gonna be every mon's and wed's. seriously i wun mind if its on sat night. sat night better than sat morning, cos after that i gotta rush dwn to church. and i'll be all sweaty and unconfortable.

okei. shall post my final entry b4 i study for my ss. a short lil review of t.p.o.t.c. i think the show is much grosse than nice. sume parts they're reali touching. and realli, all i can only think of tt show is blood, blood and even more blood. blood was lyke probably the main theme of the show. hahaha! jesus quite dao. got veri little lines.

its veri horrible. the way he got treated, jus makes you wanna cringe in ur seat man. basically, i was lyke cringing throughout the entire movie. the graphics are veri real, and thought provoking. first he got beaten up realli badly by the pharisees, den he got whipped and flogged. the flogging was horrible. it got stuck on his flesh, and den ripped off with a fairly large amnt of force. he got flogged lyke not only on his back, but all over his body. seriously, even his arms were badly battered. they looked lyke cheese bread that you buy frm the confectionery. while jesus was detained in one of the cells, the prison wardens made this crown out of rose thorns and they forced it dwn his head.

the way satan was portrayed, its jus realli freaky. and even frm the beginning when judas betrayed jesus, and when jesus was being captured by the pharisees, satan was present. and when he was tortued and crucifed, satan was there too. and satan's always there with a smirk on his face. during tymes when we sin, we're actually allowing satan to come into our lives and to ruin us. thus a.k.a self-destruction. but i think to sumeone who knoes nuts abt jesus, the show doesn't realli spread its msg of love across clearly. cos i think to them, wad has dieing on the cross got to with clensing us of all our sins. and they might even think, "are you sure Jesus died for us? he got captured, cos he was accused of false teachings and blasphemy"

i like the ending part when jesus was nailed on the cross. after they had erected the cross, jesus prayed to God and asked for God's forgiveness on the soldiers who crucified him, for they were unconscious of wad they were doing. and Jesus din even complain one bit, when he was tortured even till the point of crucifiction. as a christian, i ought to be grateful for wad jesus had done on the cross for us.

to terkey, jerine, drey, sihong, shan and cindy: hey. free this sat? i'm once more shamelessly pestering you all to come my church again. mind me, but special service this week. and service starts at 2.00p.m. not 4.30 anymore. better rite. terkey, i owe you lunch rite. cume my church leh. den either b4 or after that, then i treat you. but thank you for ur free movie pass.

yay! i'm overjoyed, cos terk and i managed to sneak into the theatre showing The Passion of The Christ. we were lyke so sneaky man. when i went to the ticket booth to redeem the tix, at first i thgt we could lyke 'legally' get through the m-18 rule. cos the women at the ticket booth was lyke asking me for the seats that i wanted. then jus as she was abt to give me the tix, she asked me for my ic. i told her that i din bring. and i asked if her whether it would be allowed if i get an adult to buy it for us. unfortch, nope it wasn't allowed.

so in the end i told her i wanted 2 tix for hidalgo. but it was all a fake. Passion starts at 4 and Hidalgo starts at 4.10. den at least get 2 tix first, then later we try sneaking our way in. we're lyke so sneaky man. cos scooby doo starts at 4.10 too, and if we were to try sneaking into Passion, we wun knoe which theatre it was at. den in the end, this women came to us and asked us sumething. she was watching scooby doo which was filmed at theatre 7. and hildago's at theatre 6. den, we lyke sneaked up at pple's backs and then try to at least peep at their tix. so that we can find out the exact theatre where passion was showing. and yea, found out that it was in theatre 1 frm sume pple tt walked past us.

den after showing our tickets to the usher, our first attempt to enter theatre 1 failed cos one of the other usher caught me sneaking arnd. so we made a u-turn go toilet and hide first. den seeing that no one was arnd, again we tried walking briskly into theatre 1. thank God one of the ushers went away into sume control room. den me and terk quickly run in.

the show ain't exactly that nice. but its realli grosse! the images are realli graphic and veri bloodish. maybe the gospel of john would be better.

2dae's been realli crappy. literally i mean. si hong and i, we're lyke gigglish the entire day. lotsa things to laugh abt. crapload of shit. during tt amelia sandran's absense, when miss tang suddenly popped in the class. almost immediately there was silence. and tt sihong went, "oh! an angel jus flew past!" without realising that miss tang was jus at the door. it was hysterical.

i've got totally got no comments abt sihong man. when i was sharing christ to sinhui, she suddenly came to us. and she went, "eh. gossiping arh. i also want to hear." wad is this. jus because we looked kind of serious (maybe much more serious than usual), she thgt we were gossiping. yea, she's my first customer of the week. gonna cont' with the other girls in class. hopefully, more teachers go on mc. free periods = time to share christ. mind me, if you keep hearing me share abt the same thing.

and after b.e.r when we went northpoint, den jerine suddenly went "eh, i suddenly feel lyke eating plates!" wad crap man! its so funny! and i keep laughing non-stop. craziness.

weird time to blog now. but i cun sleep. as usual watched america's next top model. cool show. wad the hell is wrong with those american peeps. they all seem so controlled by their emotions which make them eveready for sex. adrianne had sex when she was only 16. she's so funny. she's lyke so obsessed with boobs or sumething. but she's realli a good fren to elyse. maybe the producers are sick or sumething. cos they keep showing those parts when adrianne's in the toilet with elyse. and before their given tasks, she would lyke put those silicon boob job stuff on for elyse.

quote frm adrianne: "oh. you've got the air-supported bra. with silicon boobs and lotsa stuffed tissues. how big can tt get?" -cups her hands on elyse's boobs- "tt's big!"

yay! giselle got out! yea! i totally cun stand tt robin and shannon. they're christians and yet they wanna be america's next top model. how ironic can that be? to be america's next top model, you'll defintley be made to put on skimpy outfits and do wadever sensual poses with maybe this guy partner. and its stupid. you either be a faithful christian, and jus forget abt the entire model thing. tt stupid robin was lyke going, "he's lusting!" during their publicity photoshoot. dumb brained. if tt's expected, dun be a model.

i pity elyse. she's got sume eating disorders, and the entire crew jus keeps harping on the fact that she's anorexia and bullimic crap. but even their personal trainer verifies that she isn't, judging frm her physical state during their swimming class. during the final judgement, even the judge were against the bulimic nonsense. but luckily, she's still in the competition. she's awesome man. do check her out the next tyme you watch the show.

woah. 2dae's service was explosive. and it felt as if everyone was singing at the top of their voices. it was jus great! ne is now in the first service, and we're seated far behind. i think nexus is gonna be so filled soon. 2dae's sermon realli spoke to me in many ways, and its really applicable.

this is absolutely nerve wrecking. wynnie challenged me to sumething tt's realli -blank- not gonna say it. but i guess its good, cos who know's i might even receive a convert. tt 's wad i'm realli gonna pray abt. and i've got to learn to serve God out of my confort zone. not sumething out of fun or out of passion. but truely something, pleasing in the eyes of God. i was so full of thought while on my way home. and i guess even my expression shows it all. but it was great. jus thinking abt alot of things, and den jus talking and asking God.

i wanna watch The Passion of The Christ. read the reviews bout it on The New Paper. din exactly read it, but caught a lil glimpse of it. tt stoopid terk dun wanna lend it to me. okei. did you know tt while filming the show, that person who acted as j.c (jesus christ) got struck by lightning but he din die. and a lot more facts. mus ask tt terk lend me! i'm bugging my parents to watch tt show. told my mom abt it jus now, and she seemed rather interested abt it. and i was bugging her to get lyke 4 tix. den hopefully though its rated m-18, my bro and i can lyke sneak in to. cos our parents are watching it with us too. another main reason why i want them to watch The Passion, cos tt might bring them to another step closer to receiving Jesus. cos if im not wrong, i read in the papers tt after filming The Passion quite a number of the casts converted and received Jesus into their lives too.

guess its quite a life changing movie. so yea, hope my parents will realli watch tt show. i'm trying to get jeannie and phyllis to re-consider coming back to hope. long story. believe God's gonna work in a BIG way this easter harvest, and He shall use me to spread forth his word to the pple out there.

God, i want to be used by you as a vessel of your word. i want to experience more of your love this week, and God help me to also love the pple arnd me. not jus in words, but also in action. God, help me to step out of my comfort zone when serving you. help me to do sumething pleasing in ur eyes, God. i pray also tt through times of uncertainty, you help me make the right decisions that would best advance your kingdom. God, also annoint me with your wisdom and give me the right words to say, as i spread your word. help me to grow much more in you also. i trust in you, amen.

yay! i've figured out the plucking for five for fighting's 100 years. okei, not exactly the entire song. jus the verses only actually.

2dae's been really happening. all started with tt women's wallet. sumewad i wished i din even see tt in the first place. if not i wun be itching to take her stuff and then throw it sumewhere in the toilet. veri mean. but then sumehow there's a part of me that tells me, i should be a good samaritan. felt quite guilty for taking those stuff. but in the end, gave it all up. better not take anything, jus in case i get myself into sume serious trouble. actually wanted very badly to take her wallet, and then throw it sumewhere else w/o taking anything frm within. there's lyke so many things abt her tt irritates me. but still, decided to forgive her. cos God forgave us of our sins and He said to love your enemies. but i dunno how in any way i'm gonna love her. ewwll. shall ignore her presence then.

miss tang got no woice todae! and she took out a microphone in the middle of her lesson, and it looked as if she was trying to sing us sume song. it was damn comical. and practically the whole class was um-chioing. they either tt think a.marths book to hide their faces, or jus lyke me. use my small hands to try covering my wide grin.

this is so stupid. after reading this, you might wanna reconsider the next tyme you want me to cook you sumething. okei. i had charred spaghtti for dinner. my mom was on the phone, and she told me to cook them myself. here's the stupid thing. when i threw the spaghetti into the pot and left it to cook, sumewad i expected all those spaghtti strands to sink into the water. cos its lyke all stiff and standing. but then after 10 minutes, it wasn't even soggy at all and the top standing part of the spaghetti went all black. i think if i were to leave it there longer, they would have caught fire. but in the end, my mom came to my rescue. and b4 tt when i took the spaghetti out of the fridge i spilled everything on the floor. so stupid. felt lyke i was playing pick-up sticks. so yea, next tyme when you wanna play pick-up sticks use spaghetti.

conclusion: i can only cook maggi. not really. whenevr i cook maggi, the soup rushes realli quickly out of the pot when i throw the msg thing into the pot. so yea. nv get me to cook sumething. veri funny. reminds me of last yr's home econs practical exams. if you know it, you know it. but if you dun, tt's ur problem.

No one knows what it's like
To be the bad man
To be the sad man
Behind blue eyes

No one knows what it's like
To be hated
To be fated
To telling only lies

But my dreams
They aren't as empty
As my conscience seems to be
I have hours, only lonely
My love is vengeance
That's never free

No one knows what it's like
To feel these feelings
Like I do
And I blame you

No one bites back as hard
On their anger
None of my pain and woe
Can show through

But my dreams
They aren't as empty
As my conscience seems to be
I have hours, only lonely
My love is vengeance
That's never free

Discover... L-I-M-P
I....

No one knows what it's like
To be mistreated
To be defeated
behind blue eyes

and no one knows how to say that they're sorry
and dont worry
i'm not telling lies

but my dreams
they arent as empty
as my conscience seems to be
I have hours, only lonely
my love is vengence
that's never free

No one knows what it's like
To be the bad man
To be the sad man
Behind blue eyes

limp biskit - behind blue eyes.